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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 114 — This Is My Curse

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Alienation, anti-sentimental poetry, curse, dignity without reward, emotional-starvation, endurance, endurance over hope, ethical persistence, existential dignity, existential labor, existential poetry, existential realism, human condition, identity and meaning, intellectual suffering, internal exile, inward discipline, inward exile, inward violence, loneliness, memory and failure, modern existentialism, moral solitude, moral struggle, persistence, personal myth, philosophical melancholy, philosophical poem, philosophical voice, post-romantic realism, poverty of affection, refusal to kneel, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 114, self-accounting, self-awareness, self-examination, self-tyranny, silence, solitude, spiritual austerity, stoicism, suffering without spectacle, survival ethic, survival without consolation, truth seeking, unrequited-love, walking as metaphor, witness-less life.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 114 — This Is My Curse Those bitter moments-
injustice, inequality, cruelty aimed straight at my heart-
I want to forget them.
But I must remember them,
again and again, Read more from here...

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Punishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, academic exile, Alienation, anger identity, Asceticism, austerity, burnout, chair motif, class pressure, depression, dignity hunger, discipline as violence, emotional poverty, emotional repression, endurance, existential reckoning, failure, grief, heat and cold imagery, identity fracture, Indian context, internal exile, intimacy avoidance, ledger metaphor, loss, love and flight, masculine shame, masculine-vulnerability, memory loops, moral accounting, nihilism, non-linear narrative, persistence, Psychological realism, rejection, restraint, self-punishment, self-sabotage, solitude, substance abuse, survival ethics, time distortion, trauma repetition, unfinished reckoning, unrealized potential, unrequited-love, witnessless suffering, working-class survival.

I returned home without a degree.
Detained for attendance shortages—the rules were never clearly explained.
I lost my best friend to another lecture hall,
and my obligation to become an engineer to another timeline.
Earlier still, I lost my worth as the studious boy
when a schoolgirl rejected me for someone “different.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 101 – Life’s High

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: addiction metaphor, addiction to life, authenticity, clarity through suffering, confession without apology, delayed fulfillment, desire vs consumption, dignity in hunger, disciplined longing, emotional hunger, emotional precision, empty abundance, endurance, existential choice, existential poetry, high and crash, hunger of the heart, hunger-metaphor, integrity over abundance, intensity ethic, internal exile, life as intoxication, Life’s High, life’s wager, lived-experience, loneliness with agency, masculine solitude, menu illusion, moral appetite, one-woman vow, patience as resistance, philosophical romance, poetic minimalism, refusal of consolation, refusal of substitutes, rehab clarity, rejection of excess, restraint, romantic absolutism, romantic austerity, romantic realism, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 101, scarcity of meaning, selective desire, self-awareness, self-mythology, solitude by choice, starvation as stance, uncompromising desire, unfulfilled promise.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 101 - Life’s High Life, too, is an addiction, my friend-
when it rises,
don’t ask what state it leaves you in.
When it crashes,
people lie scattered on the streets, sunk in depression. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 100 – Something Else

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: absence-as-presence, academic exile, autobiographical fiction, black hole metaphor, chaptered life, commitment fracture, delayed destiny, dignity in loss, emotional economy, emotional scarcity, emotional-austerity, existential prose, fate vs choice, institutional failure, internal exile, irreversible moments, lived regret, loneliness without complaint, lost-love, love without possession, masculine restraint, memory loop, memory persistence, missed alignment, narrative compression, nostalgia without hope, obedience vs desire, parallel lives, personal mythology, philosophical romance, poverty of circumstance, quantum imagery, realism over fantasy, refusal of consolation, restrained despair, romantic minimalism, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 100, seat metaphor, silent longing, small-town aspiration, social constraint, Something Else, stoic grief, time collapse, timeline rupture, unchosen endings, unfulfilled romance.

Ronie Dinosaur - Chapter 100: Something Else Just a thought, for the sake of it-
maybe one day we meet again.
You borrow my phone to call your father,
tell him you’re safe,
say it’s just a friend’s number Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98 — Nothing

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: authenticity, bitterness refined, desire vs fulfillment, disenchanted love, emotional neglect, emotional-austerity, emotional-starvation, emptiness, existential hunger, existential poetry, finality, hunger of the soul, hunger-metaphor, inner exile, internal exile, intimacy hunger, lived-experience, loneliness, longing, love as sustenance, masculine-vulnerability, modern confessional, moral injury, moral solitude, nihilistic clarity, nothing, nothingness, outsider perspective, poetic despair, poetic minimalism, poetic truth, post-romantic realism, psychological scars, quiet rage, refusal of compromise, refusal of substitutes, rehab narrative, resignation, restraint, romantic disillusionment, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98, scarcity mindset, self-awareness, slow self-destruction, social alienation, stoic despair, survivor’s guilt, unmet promises, unrequited-love, wounded integrity.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98 — Nothing My heart was clean, yet I was blamed-
and I remained hungry.
Everyone drank deep, ate full,
and now sleeps well,
satisfied in the warm hush of having enough. Read more from here...

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