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Anyways

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: awareness, body and mind, character in action, Choice, Courage, deliberate choice, divine vs human, emotional labor, endurance, ethical action, existential courage, existential reflection, existential terror, female ambiguity, godlike endurance, grief, Heartbreak, heartbreak resilience, human condition, human fragility, human struggle, Introspection, introspective epic, introspective prose, longing, Love and Loss, masculine restraint, meditative poetry, moral accounting, moral courage, moral responsibility, mortality, mythic metaphor, peacock metaphor, personal narrative, philosophical poetry, Psychological realism, reflective poetry, relational ethics, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, self-discipline, Self-mastery, stoicism, substance abuse, suffering, swan metaphor, temporal awareness, unrequited-love, walking anyway.

Anyways A god endured
thousands of years in exile,
drowned in grief-yet, sweetheart,
he feared neither death
nor darkness Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126 – Murdered Three Times

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: academic burnout, alcoholism, Alienation, broken ambition, circular fate, class violence, coercive education, courage misnamed, debt metaphor, detention, discipline as weapon, economic exploitation, emotional neglect, endurance, existential-fatigue, extinction metaphor, failure narrative, family betrayal, generational pressure, grief, hope collapse, identity erosion, institutional abuse, internalized blame, invisible labor, Isolation, loneliness, lost youth, love deprivation, masculinity crisis, memory loop, moral injury, Murdered, parental cruelty, rage, repetition compulsion, resignation, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126, self-destruction, self-prosecution, silence, silence as punishment, social exclusion, substance abuse, survival guilt, testimony, Three Times, time theft, trauma, wasted effort, witness without audience.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126 - Murdered Three Times The first blade was duty, sharp and bright.
The second was silence, endless night.
The third was the bottle-mercy in disguise.
It drank the last light from my eyes.
Now only the echo of footsteps replies. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117 – Canteen, First Year

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absolute Zero, Betrayal, burden, Canteen, character, Childhood Scars, College Life, Courage, desire, devotion, discipline, emotional intelligence, Empty Stadium, Exile, Existentialism, fate, First Year, first-love, first-order truth, Ghosting, Gnosticism, Heartbreak, Inner Artist, Integrity, intent, loneliness, masculinity, memory, Penance, philosophy, Reconciliation, recovery, Redemption, rehab, resilience, respect, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117, self-punishment, self-worth, Silent Gaze, Social Contract, solitude, Sovereignty, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, The Ledger, The Void, The Walk, trauma, truth, vulnerability.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117 - Canteen, First Year So I stood in the canteen,
first-year,
the angriest young man on campus.
Armor on the outside,
an artist locked within. Read more from here...

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Punishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, academic exile, Alienation, anger identity, Asceticism, austerity, burnout, chair motif, class pressure, depression, dignity hunger, discipline as violence, emotional poverty, emotional repression, endurance, existential reckoning, failure, grief, heat and cold imagery, identity fracture, Indian context, internal exile, intimacy avoidance, ledger metaphor, loss, love and flight, masculine shame, masculine-vulnerability, memory loops, moral accounting, nihilism, non-linear narrative, persistence, Psychological realism, rejection, restraint, self-punishment, self-sabotage, solitude, substance abuse, survival ethics, time distortion, trauma repetition, unfinished reckoning, unrealized potential, unrequited-love, witnessless suffering, working-class survival.

I returned home without a degree.
Detained for attendance shortages—the rules were never clearly explained.
I lost my best friend to another lecture hall,
and my obligation to become an engineer to another timeline.
Earlier still, I lost my worth as the studious boy
when a schoolgirl rejected me for someone “different.” Read more from here...

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