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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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Ledger Without Cushion

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, alcohol, alignment, authenticity, consequence, cost of truth, decay, Defiance, dynamic pain, endurance, existential, Experience, exposure, growth, human condition, identity, inner voice, internal-conflict, Introspection, introspective, Isolation, life-journey, loneliness, melancholic, memory, metaphorical, minimalism, moral struggle, moral vigilance, mortality, Observation, personal evolution, personal struggle, philosophy, poetic, raw emotion, rebellion, reflection, rehab, resilience, risk, self-discovery, Self-mastery, societal expectation, solitude, static pain, suffering, time, truth, waiting, youth.

Ledger Without Cushion Verse 1 They chased the script the world supplied-
degree, cash, house, child, pride.
Neat receipts in tidy rows,
soft landings when the balance goes. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 55 – Feeding and Nourishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, aftermath, Agency, boundaries, care, coming-of-age, consent, consumption, desire, dignity, emotional ethics, emotional labor, emotional restraint, first-love, freedom, friendship, Heartbreak, hunger, imbalance, inner conflict, Intention, Intimacy., invitation, longing, loss, Maturity, memory, metaphor, misalignment, moral clarity, naming, nourishment, Poetic prose, power dynamics, principle, proximity, Psychological realism, Refusal, regret, relational failure, restraint vs rejection, silence, slow love, tenderness, unresolved questions, unspoken love, vulnerability, youth.

Feeding and Nourishment  Verse 1 You waited hours just for me,
Pulled me close upon your knee.
Said, “Here you are, come on,”
Fed me slow with your own hands. Read more from here...

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Sing — 07 Feb 2005 by Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005, aftermath, aging, archival writing, authenticity, boundaries, confessional poetry, crossed-out poem, diary poem, distance, early twenties, emotional clarity, emotional discipline, endurance, first-love, growth, handwriting, Heartbreak, history, Indian college, longing, longing without consent, loss, memory, naming absence, paper artifacts, plea, private writing, Refusal, refusal to send, regret, repetition, restraint, restraint learned, Ronie, self-awareness, self-command, silence, solitude, song lyrics, testimony, time, unrequited-love, unsent letter, voice, vulnerability, waiting, witness, yellowed pages, youth melancholy.

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 Sing,
sing for me,
I am waiting for you.
Oh, it doesn’t rain now;
everything just seems Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117 – Canteen, First Year

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absolute Zero, Betrayal, burden, Canteen, character, Childhood Scars, College Life, Courage, desire, devotion, discipline, emotional intelligence, Empty Stadium, Exile, Existentialism, fate, First Year, first-love, first-order truth, Ghosting, Gnosticism, Heartbreak, Inner Artist, Integrity, intent, loneliness, masculinity, memory, Penance, philosophy, Reconciliation, recovery, Redemption, rehab, resilience, respect, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117, self-punishment, self-worth, Silent Gaze, Social Contract, solitude, Sovereignty, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, The Ledger, The Void, The Walk, trauma, truth, vulnerability.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117 - Canteen, First Year So I stood in the canteen,
first-year,
the angriest young man on campus.
Armor on the outside,
an artist locked within. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116 – Nehru Place, Twenty-Something

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: absence of light, angel chaos, bitterness, Bollywood song, character study, Delhi bus, dignity, emotional trauma, execution metaphor, existential poetry, failed romance, fate vs choice, fleeting connections, grief, Heartbreak, human fragility, Indian city life, inner darkness, lost-love, love without possession, masculine-vulnerability, memory, mental health, modern Indian poetry, Moral integrity, Nehru Place, Philosophical reflection, Psychological realism, quiet despair, rejection, resilience, respect in love, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116, scars, self-awareness, self-condemnation, silent witness, social judgment, solitude, survival, truth-telling, twenties, Twenty-Something, urban loneliness, war hero peace, youth disillusionment.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116 - Nehru Place, Twenty-Something Twenty-something,
college backpack heavy on my shoulders,
T-shirt and jeans,
standing by the front door of a crowded bus
headed to Nehru Place. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 – What Is Time?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Physics, Psychology Tagged: Absence, aging, awareness, consciousness, Continuity, cosmic indifference, distance, emotional gravity, emotional-truth, entropy, existence, existential reflection, Heartbreak, Human Cost, human finitude, identity, impermanence, inevitability, inner witness, inwardness, Isolation, longing, loss, love deferred, memory, metaphysics, missed timing, nostalgia, parallel lives, perception, persistence, personal-history, philosophical poetry, photon, physics metaphor, reality, regret, relativity, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112, self-recognition, separation, silence, solitude, subjective time, temporality, time, unrealized futures, unrequited-love, waiting, What Is Time.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 - What Is Time? A change in status in someone’s heart.
Yesterday, I was everything.
Today, I cannot even greet you as an equal-
you, another man’s wife,
your children now the age we were Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 109 – The Anti-Thesis

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: ambiguity, Betrayal, bitterness, Brokenness, closure, college romance, coming-of-age, confrontation, devotion, ego, Emotional baggage, Emotional manipulation, Empty seats, Fear of commitment, gaslighting, Ghosting, growth, healing, Heartbreak, Hidden pain, identity, Intimacy., loneliness, Loss of innocence, masculinity, memory, Moving on, nostalgia, obsession, Perspective, poetry, power dynamics, reflection, regret, Reputation, resentment, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 109, Rumors, self-destruction, silence, Social status, stoicism, symbolism, The Anti-Thesis, The past, Toxic relationships, truth, unrequited-love, Unspoken words, vulnerability, yearning, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 91 - The Unpermitted Path

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 109 – The Anti-Thesis It wasn’t that I failed to win you,
or that I lacked permission-
you had already written the letter yourself,
granting full access to raw lust,
to be taken without hesitation. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108 – The Gift I Never Unwrapped

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, accountability, attitude, Betrayal, boundaries, Brothel, Chapter 108, character, Choice, consent, cynicism, discarded, disillusionment, Engineering College, equality, Forty-two, gift, heart, honor, Human Responsibility, Innocence, Integrity, intent, irony, Irresponsible, logic, masculine-vulnerability, masculinity, memory, naive, narrative, pain, philosophy, Practicality, presence, reality, rejection, respect, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108, Ruin, Satellite, Seduction, self-respect, silence, stoicism, Submissive, The Gift, truth, Unwrapped, Unwrapped Gift, withdrawal, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108 – The Gift I Never Unwrapped After giving you so much love,
after caring so deeply,
after orbiting you like a satellite,
after never once demanding you from yourself-
I kept you safe, like a gift saved for the perfect moment, Read more from here...

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