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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 1 month ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 55 – Feeding and Nourishment

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, aftermath, Agency, boundaries, care, coming-of-age, consent, consumption, desire, dignity, emotional ethics, emotional labor, emotional restraint, first-love, freedom, friendship, Heartbreak, hunger, imbalance, inner conflict, Intention, Intimacy., invitation, longing, loss, Maturity, memory, metaphor, misalignment, moral clarity, naming, nourishment, Poetic prose, power dynamics, principle, proximity, Psychological realism, Refusal, regret, relational failure, restraint vs rejection, silence, slow love, tenderness, unresolved questions, unspoken love, vulnerability, youth.

Feeding and Nourishment  Verse 1 You waited hours just for me,
Pulled me close upon your knee.
Said, “Here you are, come on,”
Fed me slow with your own hands. Read more from here...

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Sing — 07 Feb 2005 by Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005, aftermath, aging, archival writing, authenticity, boundaries, confessional poetry, crossed-out poem, diary poem, distance, early twenties, emotional clarity, emotional discipline, endurance, first-love, growth, handwriting, Heartbreak, history, Indian college, longing, longing without consent, loss, memory, naming absence, paper artifacts, plea, private writing, Refusal, refusal to send, regret, repetition, restraint, restraint learned, Ronie, self-awareness, self-command, silence, solitude, song lyrics, testimony, time, unrequited-love, unsent letter, voice, vulnerability, waiting, witness, yellowed pages, youth melancholy.

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 Sing,
sing for me,
I am waiting for you.
Oh, it doesn’t rain now;
everything just seems Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 – What Is Time?

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Physics, Psychology Tagged: Absence, aging, awareness, consciousness, Continuity, cosmic indifference, distance, emotional gravity, emotional-truth, entropy, existence, existential reflection, Heartbreak, Human Cost, human finitude, identity, impermanence, inevitability, inner witness, inwardness, Isolation, longing, loss, love deferred, memory, metaphysics, missed timing, nostalgia, parallel lives, perception, persistence, personal-history, philosophical poetry, photon, physics metaphor, reality, regret, relativity, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112, self-recognition, separation, silence, solitude, subjective time, temporality, time, unrealized futures, unrequited-love, waiting, What Is Time.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 - What Is Time? A change in status in someone’s heart.
Yesterday, I was everything.
Today, I cannot even greet you as an equal-
you, another man’s wife,
your children now the age we were Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 109 – The Anti-Thesis

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: ambiguity, Betrayal, bitterness, Brokenness, closure, college romance, coming-of-age, confrontation, devotion, ego, Emotional baggage, Emotional manipulation, Empty seats, Fear of commitment, gaslighting, Ghosting, growth, healing, Heartbreak, Hidden pain, identity, Intimacy., loneliness, Loss of innocence, masculinity, memory, Moving on, nostalgia, obsession, Perspective, poetry, power dynamics, reflection, regret, Reputation, resentment, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 109, Rumors, self-destruction, silence, Social status, stoicism, symbolism, The Anti-Thesis, The past, Toxic relationships, truth, unrequited-love, Unspoken words, vulnerability, yearning, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 91 - The Unpermitted Path

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 109 – The Anti-Thesis It wasn’t that I failed to win you,
or that I lacked permission-
you had already written the letter yourself,
granting full access to raw lust,
to be taken without hesitation. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 – Reflection: The Lost Edge

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, character, consequence, deprivation, despair, dignity, direction, discipline, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, failure, fate, grief, hardship, honesty, human condition, hunger, identity, Introspection, loneliness, loss, masculinity, meaning, memory, Moral integrity, mortality, navigation, perseverance, post-trauma, poverty, realism, reckoning, reflection, Refusal, regret, rehabilitation, resilience, resolve, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95, self-analysis, Selfhood, stoicism, suffering, survival, The Lost Edge, truth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 - Reflection: The Lost Edge Back when youth was still on my side,
rejections stung-but I carried a quiet certainty
that my ethics, morals, and character were clean.
I was not wrong.
I told myself: one day a woman would see it, Read more from here...

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Why Did She Humiliate Me?

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: animal-metaphor, anti-romance, biology, desire, Existentialism, Human nature, humiliation, hunger, Innocence, Intimacy., jungle-symbolism, loss, masculinity, modern-epic, mythic-poetry, philosophy, power, psychology, regret, restraint, self-knowledge, sexual-politics, tenderness, tragic-realism, unmet-love.

Title – Why Did She Humiliate Me? Why did she humiliate me so?
That heart-breaking woman laid me low.
To learn what happened, who he truly was,
he walked into the jungle, just because-
and lingered long in thought’s unyielding shade Read more from here...

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Monstrously, Monotonously Vast

Posted 3 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: accountability, aftermath, anger, Betrayal, clarity, confinement, consequence, damage, desire, disillusionment, endurance, existential, Isolation, loss, memory, Monotonously Vast, monstrously, philosophy, realism, reckoning, recovery, regret, restraint, sobriety, survival, truth.

Title - Monstrously, Monotonously Vast Sometimes I talk to snakes,
and sometimes I think of her-
only realizing it later.
Through iron bars, the moon,
snagged in black branches. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 62 – Humiliation

Posted 3 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, Alienation, becoming, comparison, Continuation, endurance, firstlove, grief, identity, invisence, loneliness, loss, memory, nostalgia, passageoftime, regret, rejection, resilience, selfreflection, silence, stagnation, time, witnessing, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 62 - Humiliation To counter humiliation
from a girl in school-
love at first sight-
I armed myself with pride and silence.
The next time I stood before a girl, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 61 – Beg for Love

Posted 3 months ago under DINOSAUR Tagged: aging, arrogance, awakening, Beg for Love, despair, evidence, Existentialism, failure, fate, fear, honesty, identity, Isolation, loneliness, love, memory, nihilism, reckoning, regret, rejection, resignation, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 61, selfrespect, silence, time, truth, Utterly Unrequired, vulnerability.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 61 - Beg for Love Like the shape of a peeled water chestnut,
that thing so precious,
so rare-
for which people bend and kneel,
join hands in silent prayer, Read more from here...

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