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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 1 month ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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Palimpsest Poem

Posted 1 month ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, annotated poem, archival poetry, attachment, autobiographical poetry, confessional poetry, crossed-out text, distance and desire, documentary lyric, emotional asymmetry, emotional residue, endurance, evidence-based poetry, existential longing, first-order truth, grief, internal collapse, intimacy and distance, irreversible moment, lived reality, loneliness, longing without hope, love as demand, love without reciprocity, marginalia, memory and loss, Negation, obsession, Palimpsest, persistence, poem, private history, proof of love, psychological record, Refusal, refusal to romanticize, rejection, restraint, silence, solitude, storm metaphor, survival, temporal layering, truth over beauty, unrequited-love, vulnerability, waiting.

Palimpsest Poem If nothing saves you,
what do you still do?
What does one do?
What do you do?
And then what do I do? Read more from here...

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Why Not Me?

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment trauma, Agency, attachment, Betrayal, boundaries, consent, desire vs respect, dignity, emotional abandonment, emotional labor, endurance, existential questioning, fairness, friendship breakup, Heartbreak, human condition, incompatibility, inner conflict, Isolation, loneliness, longing, loss, male vulnerability, melancholia, memory, misalignment, moral conflict, moral solitude, patience, philosophical poetry, reflective verse, refusal-to-beg, rejection, restraint, restraint over desire, self-respect, self-withdrawal, shame, silence, slow burn, solitude, time, unanswered questions, unrequited-love, why not me, withdrawal.

Title - Why Not Me? With the heart that called you friend,
I asked you to be my girl.
You said no-straight, no pretend.
What’s a guy supposed to do in this world?
Should I stand there, beg, and plead, Read more from here...

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Woman at Harem

Posted 3 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, Alienation, attachment, Control, desire, Detachment, discipline, emptiness, endurance, grief, humanity, identity, loneliness, loss, masculinity, pain, philosophy, rehabilitation, rejection, resilience, solitude, survival, trauma, truth, yearning.

The girl I loved at first sight turned away,
humiliated me outside my new classroom door.
I thought hard, saw my lack of emotional grace,
swore no one would hurt me like that anymore.
So I built strength-the athlete was born in pain,
the philosopher woke in the dark before. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 71 – Cruel Intentions

Posted 3 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: acceptance, attachment, awakening, Betrayal, boundaries, clarity, Control, Cruel Intentions, cruelty, dignity, disillusionment, emotionalabuse, Heartbreak, honesty, imbalance, loss, love, manipulation, neglect, power, realization, rejection, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 71, selfrespect, separation, truth, vulnerability.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 71 - Cruel Intentions In love, there are no secrets.
If they still exist in her-and she cannot tell or explain why, even after I ask with my whole heart, again and again-and if it keeps getting worse, then it’s time I accept the truth: she didn’t love me. She loved the way I made her feel special, and even that was ordinary to her.
Love that keeps me waiting, that sees me cry in pain and continues to do the same things that hurt me, is not love. It’s clear she thinks love is foolish, and she considers herself smart enough to treat me poorly, even in front of my own eyes. This is not a trust issue, no matter how often she throws that word at me. This is her character.
Even after giving her my whole world, she keeps the door open-selling me a dream and delivering a nightmare. I tell her every day that I miss her, even in the space between seconds. She never misses a chance to make me feel unwanted, sometimes even laughing at my misery. That is a choice. Nothing else.
She makes excuses for not choosing me. She keeps doing things that make me feel ashamed of the love I give her, while pretending she never takes advantage. She manipulates, dictates, and lectures me-saying love should not be proud or loud-while I stay patient, absorbing everything, still hoping for her love. Read more from here...

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