loss – Read Poems aka Dinosaurs – Poems by Ronie Dinosaur

God

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Existential Rehabism, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: accountability, action, alignment, authenticity, Autonomy, awareness, character, cognitive clarity, collapse, consciousness, Continuity, decision-making, desire, discipline, endurance, engineering, Ethics, existential, first-order truth, habit, honesty, human condition, inner truth, Integrity, intent, Introspection, loss, mann, minimalism, morality, non-conformity, Observation, performance, personal responsibility, philosophy, presence, Purity, reality, reflection, Residue, resilience, self-awareness, self-discipline, Self-mastery, self-surveillance, solitude, structure, style, suffering, truth.

God Caught between the truth I felt
and reality’s refusal to agree,
I stand in silence, asking:
Is there a man here-
or only the space Read more from here...

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Melancholy Song

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Existential Rehabism, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abstract, atmospheric, ballad, Confessional, contemplative, decay, despair, emotional restraint, existential, existential poetry, human condition, indie, inner life, intimate, Introspection, introspective, Isolation, life passing, loneliness, longing, longing without hope, loss, lyrical, melancholy, metaphorical, minimal instrumentation, minor key, missed connection, missed opportunity, narrative, patient, personal observation, philosophy, piano, poetic, reality, reflective, resigned, sad song, silence, singer-songwriter, slow melody, slow tempo, song, stillness, strings, subtle, temporal misalignment, timing, tragic timing, truth, Unrequited, waiting.

Melancholy Song The past is gone,
the future may not stretch far enough to begin.
The most fruitless task:
thinking about someone
who does not think about you. Read more from here...

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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 55 – Feeding and Nourishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, aftermath, Agency, boundaries, care, coming-of-age, consent, consumption, desire, dignity, emotional ethics, emotional labor, emotional restraint, first-love, freedom, friendship, Heartbreak, hunger, imbalance, inner conflict, Intention, Intimacy., invitation, longing, loss, Maturity, memory, metaphor, misalignment, moral clarity, naming, nourishment, Poetic prose, power dynamics, principle, proximity, Psychological realism, Refusal, regret, relational failure, restraint vs rejection, silence, slow love, tenderness, unresolved questions, unspoken love, vulnerability, youth.

Feeding and Nourishment  Verse 1 You waited hours just for me,
Pulled me close upon your knee.
Said, “Here you are, come on,”
Fed me slow with your own hands. Read more from here...

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Sing — 07 Feb 2005 by Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005, aftermath, aging, archival writing, authenticity, boundaries, confessional poetry, crossed-out poem, diary poem, distance, early twenties, emotional clarity, emotional discipline, endurance, first-love, growth, handwriting, Heartbreak, history, Indian college, longing, longing without consent, loss, memory, naming absence, paper artifacts, plea, private writing, Refusal, refusal to send, regret, repetition, restraint, restraint learned, Ronie, self-awareness, self-command, silence, solitude, song lyrics, testimony, time, unrequited-love, unsent letter, voice, vulnerability, waiting, witness, yellowed pages, youth melancholy.

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 Sing,
sing for me,
I am waiting for you.
Oh, it doesn’t rain now;
everything just seems Read more from here...

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Sorcery

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, ambiguity, autobiographical fiction, body language, boundaries, character, confession, consent, desire, dignity, discipline, disillusionment, emotional labor, first-order truth, Heartbreak, Intimacy., Kaliyug myth, longing, loss, masculinity, modern alienation, Modernity, moral economy, mythic voice, peacock metaphor, power dynamics, Pride, Psychological realism, Purity, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint ethics, romantic idealism, Ronie Dinosaur, self-respect, Selfhood, solitude, Sorcery, stoicism, swan metaphor, symbolism, transformation, unrequited-love, vulnerability, will.

Sorcery I came back having lost-so who has ever come back having won?
I lived by my own will; this is not called losing.
I became Ronie to the whole world-from five-year-old children to everyone at the table, at the door, or on the floor.
In return for the love I gave the boy within me, I could not gather love from a girl for myself.
The generosity of my spirit, my character in action, my golden intent-and yet my desire proved fruitless. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Punishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, academic exile, Alienation, anger identity, Asceticism, austerity, burnout, chair motif, class pressure, depression, dignity hunger, discipline as violence, emotional poverty, emotional repression, endurance, existential reckoning, failure, grief, heat and cold imagery, identity fracture, Indian context, internal exile, intimacy avoidance, ledger metaphor, loss, love and flight, masculine shame, masculine-vulnerability, memory loops, moral accounting, nihilism, non-linear narrative, persistence, Psychological realism, rejection, restraint, self-punishment, self-sabotage, solitude, substance abuse, survival ethics, time distortion, trauma repetition, unfinished reckoning, unrealized potential, unrequited-love, witnessless suffering, working-class survival.

I returned home without a degree.
Detained for attendance shortages—the rules were never clearly explained.
I lost my best friend to another lecture hall,
and my obligation to become an engineer to another timeline.
Earlier still, I lost my worth as the studious boy
when a schoolgirl rejected me for someone “different.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 – What Is Time?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Physics, Psychology Tagged: Absence, aging, awareness, consciousness, Continuity, cosmic indifference, distance, emotional gravity, emotional-truth, entropy, existence, existential reflection, Heartbreak, Human Cost, human finitude, identity, impermanence, inevitability, inner witness, inwardness, Isolation, longing, loss, love deferred, memory, metaphysics, missed timing, nostalgia, parallel lives, perception, persistence, personal-history, philosophical poetry, photon, physics metaphor, reality, regret, relativity, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112, self-recognition, separation, silence, solitude, subjective time, temporality, time, unrealized futures, unrequited-love, waiting, What Is Time.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 - What Is Time? A change in status in someone’s heart.
Yesterday, I was everything.
Today, I cannot even greet you as an equal-
you, another man’s wife,
your children now the age we were Read more from here...

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Hymn to Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, anti-hero, authenticity, bare life, depression, discipline, emotional honesty, endurance, existential, Existentialism, human condition, human witness, Hymn, identity, indie folk, inner strength, Integrity, Isolation, lived-experience, loneliness, loss, meaning, middle age, no romance, no salvation, perseverance, quiet defiance, realism, realism poetry, recovery, rehab, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, sobriety, solitude, spoken word, stoicism, stripped hope, suffering, survival, testimony, truth, Walking, walking forward, witness.

Hymn to Ronie Dinosaur Verse 1 In a life monstrous, vast, and cruel beyond measure,
I’ve climbed Himalayan heights, plunged to trench’s dark treasure.
Wrong place, wrong time-life’s brutal lesson taught,
Power, money, status fade; innocence dearly bought. Read more from here...

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