Ronie Dinosaur

God Caught between the truth I felt and reality’s refusal to agree, I stand in silence, asking: Is there a man here- or only the space Read more from here...

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue; desire learned to speak only in silence. I hid the wanting so well even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 107 - What is Bad Luck? What is bad luck? Wrong time, wrong place. Who chose that time, that place? Who carried me there? Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 - Reflection: The Lost Edge Back when youth was still on my side, rejections stung-but I carried a quiet certainty that my ethics, morals, and character were clean. I was not wrong. I told myself: one day a woman would see it, Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 - What a Wonderful World My mother died two and a half years ago. My father just suffered a heart attack. At thirty-seven, single, I felt utterly unable to cope. When I headed to the brothel, I knew exactly where I was going. I kept telling myself: They don't give love; they sell what you pay for-and that's all you'll get. Read more from here...

Title – Quantum The world flaunts trophies bright- achievements, gold, titles won in fight by climbing on backs, stepping over the fallen- and calls it greatness, loud and swollen. It is not. Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur’s Song - Spine of Barren Soil Spoken Interlude (Insight) (Music drops to a sparse beat. Voice close, raw.) She never says “don’t go” out loud- she calls you close, then holds you without a word. A man doesn’t summon. Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 77 - Eligible First there was grief- then humiliation, shame, depression. Then the mind began to question: Why did this happen? Why only with me? Read more from here...

Title – Entitlement (The Old Man and the Sea) If even I don’t know, then who does? This is my claim: direct experience towers over academic titles. Put her where I stand- tell me what she would see. Or would she disintegrate instantly, Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 71 - Cruel Intentions In love, there are no secrets. If they still exist in her-and she cannot tell or explain why, even after I ask with my whole heart, again and again-and if it keeps getting worse, then it’s time I accept the truth: she didn’t love me. She loved the way I made her feel special, and even that was ordinary to her. Love that keeps me waiting, that sees me cry in pain and continues to do the same things that hurt me, is not love. It’s clear she thinks love is foolish, and she considers herself smart enough to treat me poorly, even in front of my own eyes. This is not a trust issue, no matter how often she throws that word at me. This is her character. Even after giving her my whole world, she keeps the door open-selling me a dream and delivering a nightmare. I tell her every day that I miss her, even in the space between seconds. She never misses a chance to make me feel unwanted, sometimes even laughing at my misery. That is a choice. Nothing else. She makes excuses for not choosing me. She keeps doing things that make me feel ashamed of the love I give her, while pretending she never takes advantage. She manipulates, dictates, and lectures me-saying love should not be proud or loud-while I stay patient, absorbing everything, still hoping for her love. Read more from here...