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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 1 month ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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I Look Like You — 20 Jan 2005

Posted 2 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005 poem, adolescent identity, autobiographical poem, decay and memory, early authorship, early heartbreak, emotional dependency, emotional honesty, emotional minimalism, emotional mirror, emotional mirroring, existential youth, fear retention, first love residue, fragile hope, ghost self, identity fracture, inner collapse, inner dialogue, internal critic, inward gaze, loneliness voice, longing presence, loss illusion, love projection, memory artifact, mirror imagery, non-performative art, personal archive, personal mythology, poetic fragment, private writing, psychological reflection, raw-poetry, self-alienation, self-criticism, self-erasure, self-growth anxiety, self-recognition failure, silent grief, teenage introspection, time capsule poem, unfinished self, unrequited-love, unsent confession, yellowed pages, youth despair.

I Look Like You — 20 Jan 2005 Did I know?
I am a ghost,
hiding a mirror in which
I can’t see myself.
Yet there is hope-an illusion: Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 70 – The Door

Posted 3 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, absence as erasure, attachment fracture, cultural metaphor, dignity through withdrawal, door, door metaphor, emotional labor, emotional neglect, excuses, existential separation, eyes, first-order truth, friendship betrayal, grief without closure, invisibility, lived disappointment, loss of witness, moral, moral projection, politics, quiet departure, relational asymmetry, relational realism, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 70, self-erasure, social replacement, The Door, unreciprocated bonds, unshared memory, walking away.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 70 - The Door Those who didn’t value the salt in my tears,
a little smile on my face would have killed their ghosts out of fear.
Maybe I was just standing at the door.
The door was open-
and I had to understand what for: Read more from here...

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