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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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Ledger Without Cushion

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, alcohol, alignment, authenticity, consequence, cost of truth, decay, Defiance, dynamic pain, endurance, existential, Experience, exposure, growth, human condition, identity, inner voice, internal-conflict, Introspection, introspective, Isolation, life-journey, loneliness, melancholic, memory, metaphorical, minimalism, moral struggle, moral vigilance, mortality, Observation, personal evolution, personal struggle, philosophy, poetic, raw emotion, rebellion, reflection, rehab, resilience, risk, self-discovery, Self-mastery, societal expectation, solitude, static pain, suffering, time, truth, waiting, youth.

Ledger Without Cushion Verse 1 They chased the script the world supplied-
degree, cash, house, child, pride.
Neat receipts in tidy rows,
soft landings when the balance goes. Read more from here...

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Sing — 07 Feb 2005 by Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005, aftermath, aging, archival writing, authenticity, boundaries, confessional poetry, crossed-out poem, diary poem, distance, early twenties, emotional clarity, emotional discipline, endurance, first-love, growth, handwriting, Heartbreak, history, Indian college, longing, longing without consent, loss, memory, naming absence, paper artifacts, plea, private writing, Refusal, refusal to send, regret, repetition, restraint, restraint learned, Ronie, self-awareness, self-command, silence, solitude, song lyrics, testimony, time, unrequited-love, unsent letter, voice, vulnerability, waiting, witness, yellowed pages, youth melancholy.

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 Sing,
sing for me,
I am waiting for you.
Oh, it doesn’t rain now;
everything just seems Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 131 – The Fear of Solitude

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: acceptance, Agency, awareness, character, clarity, consciousness, consequence, Courage, destiny, determinism, discipline, emotional control, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, fate, fear, forward motion, grit, grounded wisdom, human condition, inevitability, inner strength, Introspection, Maturity, minimalism, Moral Spine., non-romantic, perseverance, personal law, philosophical poetry, psychological stability, quiet power, realism, refusal-of-illusion, resilience, resolve, responsibility, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 131, RonieDinosaur, Self-mastery, solitude, stoicism, strength without hope, time, walking metaphor, will.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 131 - The Fear of Solitude He walks in fear of being left behind,
in fear of ending up alone.
Yet he walks alone-
and always remains alone,
no matter what. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 134 – The Law of Inevitability

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: acceptance, Agency, awareness, character, clarity, consciousness, consequence, Courage, destiny, determinism, discipline, emotional control, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, fate, forward motion, grit, grounded wisdom, human condition, inevitability, inner strength, Introspection, Maturity, minimalism, Moral Spine., non-romantic, perseverance, personal law, philosophical poetry, psychological stability, quiet power, realism, refusal-of-illusion, resilience, resolve, responsibility, restraint, RonieDinosaur, Self-mastery, solitude, stoicism, strength without hope, time, walking metaphor, will.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 134 - The Law of Inevitability What was meant to happen
has already passed.
What is unfolding now
unfolds as it must.
What is destined to be Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 – What Is Time?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Physics, Psychology Tagged: Absence, aging, awareness, consciousness, Continuity, cosmic indifference, distance, emotional gravity, emotional-truth, entropy, existence, existential reflection, Heartbreak, Human Cost, human finitude, identity, impermanence, inevitability, inner witness, inwardness, Isolation, longing, loss, love deferred, memory, metaphysics, missed timing, nostalgia, parallel lives, perception, persistence, personal-history, philosophical poetry, photon, physics metaphor, reality, regret, relativity, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112, self-recognition, separation, silence, solitude, subjective time, temporality, time, unrealized futures, unrequited-love, waiting, What Is Time.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 - What Is Time? A change in status in someone’s heart.
Yesterday, I was everything.
Today, I cannot even greet you as an equal-
you, another man’s wife,
your children now the age we were Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92 – Hunger and Poverty

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, absence-as-presence, accountability, blame, care-without-reward, consent, consequence, deprivation, dignity, emotional-austerity, endurance, ethical-poverty, Ethics, existential-accounting, Existentialism, Human Cost, hunger, hunger-metaphor, Integrity, internal-law, invisibility, Isolation, loneliness, loss, masculinity, moral choice, moral-cost, moral-hunger, negative-space, poverty, quiet-tragedy, Refusal, refusal-politics, refusal-to-consume, restraint, restraint-vs-desire, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92, RonieDinosaur, scarcity, self-denial, self-governance, silence, society, solitude, starvation, time, unmet-need, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92 – Hunger and Poverty The point is—
a man must eat when it is served.
Yet I carry this blame: I did not eat,
though the world knew my hunger—
those who fed me, Read more from here...

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Why Not Me?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment trauma, Agency, attachment, Betrayal, boundaries, consent, desire vs respect, dignity, emotional abandonment, emotional labor, endurance, existential questioning, fairness, friendship breakup, Heartbreak, human condition, incompatibility, inner conflict, Isolation, loneliness, longing, loss, male vulnerability, melancholia, memory, misalignment, moral conflict, moral solitude, patience, philosophical poetry, reflective verse, refusal-to-beg, rejection, restraint, restraint over desire, self-respect, self-withdrawal, shame, silence, slow burn, solitude, time, unanswered questions, unrequited-love, why not me, withdrawal.

Title - Why Not Me? With the heart that called you friend,
I asked you to be my girl.
You said no-straight, no pretend.
What’s a guy supposed to do in this world?
Should I stand there, beg, and plead, Read more from here...

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I Did Not Take

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, boundary, consequence, denial, desire, dignity, emotional discipline, Ethics, Integrity, loneliness, loss, masculinity, memory, moral-line, Refusal, regret-without-pity, restraint, self-respect, separation, silence, solitude, Take, time, unchosen, unreciprocated-love, youth.

Title - I Did Not Take She told herself it was no big deal-
to touch a friend with too much fire,
to pour her lust like cheap appeal.
I never urged her, never once.
I held my line. I stood my ground. Read more from here...

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