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The Unnamed Gift

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, alignment, Autonomy, boundaries, character, Choice, clarity, consent, Consent Culture, corruption, desire, dignity, discipline, Ethics, ethics of desire, Existentialism, exposure, gift, gravity, human heart, hunger, inner alarm, Innocence, Integrity, loneliness, love, lust, modern love, moral courage, morality, naming, non-consumption, philosophy, posture, power, pressure, Refusal, refusal as strength, responsibility, restraint, self-respect, Selfhood, silence, standing upright, temptation.

The Unnamed Gift When you give a gift,
do you announce it-This is for you-
or do you leave it in the dark
and call the receiver thief?
Hunger exists. Read more from here...

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Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Posted 4 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, Agency, agency-withholding, articulation, attachment, avoidance, boundaries, cognitive dissonance, communication, confession, consent, consequence, desire, emotional labor, Ethics, Existentialism, failure modes, honesty, identity, Intimacy., Isolation, learning, loneliness, loss, masculinity, Mastery, memory, moral discipline, optimization, overfitting, permission, phenomenology, power dynamics, procedural grief, Reciprocity, recognition, regret, repression, restraint, self-accountability, self-authorship, self-erasure, silence, social norms, speech acts, time, translation, unmet-need, unspoken, vulnerability.

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 55 – Feeding and Nourishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, aftermath, Agency, boundaries, care, coming-of-age, consent, consumption, desire, dignity, emotional ethics, emotional labor, emotional restraint, first-love, freedom, friendship, Heartbreak, hunger, imbalance, inner conflict, Intention, Intimacy., invitation, longing, loss, Maturity, memory, metaphor, misalignment, moral clarity, naming, nourishment, Poetic prose, power dynamics, principle, proximity, Psychological realism, Refusal, regret, relational failure, restraint vs rejection, silence, slow love, tenderness, unresolved questions, unspoken love, vulnerability, youth.

Feeding and Nourishment  Verse 1 You waited hours just for me,
Pulled me close upon your knee.
Said, “Here you are, come on,”
Fed me slow with your own hands. Read more from here...

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Sing — 07 Feb 2005 by Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005, aftermath, aging, archival writing, authenticity, boundaries, confessional poetry, crossed-out poem, diary poem, distance, early twenties, emotional clarity, emotional discipline, endurance, first-love, growth, handwriting, Heartbreak, history, Indian college, longing, longing without consent, loss, memory, naming absence, paper artifacts, plea, private writing, Refusal, refusal to send, regret, repetition, restraint, restraint learned, Ronie, self-awareness, self-command, silence, solitude, song lyrics, testimony, time, unrequited-love, unsent letter, voice, vulnerability, waiting, witness, yellowed pages, youth melancholy.

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 Sing,
sing for me,
I am waiting for you.
Oh, it doesn’t rain now;
everything just seems Read more from here...

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Sorcery

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, ambiguity, autobiographical fiction, body language, boundaries, character, confession, consent, desire, dignity, discipline, disillusionment, emotional labor, first-order truth, Heartbreak, Intimacy., Kaliyug myth, longing, loss, masculinity, modern alienation, Modernity, moral economy, mythic voice, peacock metaphor, power dynamics, Pride, Psychological realism, Purity, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint ethics, romantic idealism, Ronie Dinosaur, self-respect, Selfhood, solitude, Sorcery, stoicism, swan metaphor, symbolism, transformation, unrequited-love, vulnerability, will.

Sorcery I came back having lost-so who has ever come back having won?
I lived by my own will; this is not called losing.
I became Ronie to the whole world-from five-year-old children to everyone at the table, at the door, or on the floor.
In return for the love I gave the boy within me, I could not gather love from a girl for myself.
The generosity of my spirit, my character in action, my golden intent-and yet my desire proved fruitless. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127 – What Is Love?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Alienation, asymmetry, boundaries, chosen deprivation, consent, desire, dignity, dominance, emotional ethics, emotional mismatch, Ethics, gun metaphor, hunger-metaphor, identity, inner conflict, inner law, Integrity, Intimacy., invisible rupture, longing, love, masculine restraint, misunderstanding, modern romance, moral injury, morality, non-consummation, philosophy, power, power dynamics, psychology, quiet violence, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint versus appetite, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127, self-control, silence, silence as violence, starvation, submission, surrender, trauma, unmet desire, unrecognized virtue, vulnerability, What Is Love.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127 - What Is Love? A seat in the university lecture hall
always saved for me-
her Ronie, the only one allowed to sit.
She would wait in the room,
never calling, never texting, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 120 – Frooti Shot Me Down

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: aching want, afterglow, ambiguous relationship, attraction, Betrayal, bittersweet, boundaries, cinematic mood, college setting, confusion, dark romance, desire vs dignity, emotional gunshot, emotional tension, empty chair, erotic subtext, forbidden closeness, Frooti, Heartbreak, hidden rooms, Intimacy., Jealousy, late-night calls, lonely narrator, longing, longing glances, lust, melancholy, Memories, near-miss, obsession, obsessional love, poetic noir, power dynamics, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 120, rooftops, secrecy, Seduction, Shot Me Down, silence, slow burn, stairwells, trust, unresolved love, unspoken desire, vulnerability, walking away, yearning.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 120 - Frooti Shot Me Down Verse 1 You wanted fire without a name,
corner me dark, take all the same.
No title needed, no promise spoken-
just hands in shadows, rules left broken. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108 – The Gift I Never Unwrapped

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, accountability, attitude, Betrayal, boundaries, Brothel, Chapter 108, character, Choice, consent, cynicism, discarded, disillusionment, Engineering College, equality, Forty-two, gift, heart, honor, Human Responsibility, Innocence, Integrity, intent, irony, Irresponsible, logic, masculine-vulnerability, masculinity, memory, naive, narrative, pain, philosophy, Practicality, presence, reality, rejection, respect, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108, Ruin, Satellite, Seduction, self-respect, silence, stoicism, Submissive, The Gift, truth, Unwrapped, Unwrapped Gift, withdrawal, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108 – The Gift I Never Unwrapped After giving you so much love,
after caring so deeply,
after orbiting you like a satellite,
after never once demanding you from yourself-
I kept you safe, like a gift saved for the perfect moment, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 – Stairway to Hell

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abstinence, Agency, ambiguity, attention, awakening, boundaries, college, consent, consequence, Control, desire, Detachment, discipline, distance, dominance, ego, Ethics, fallout, friendship, Hierarchy, humiliation, identity, irony, loneliness, loss, lust, masculinity, memory, miscommunication, narrative, Observation, perception, performance, power, Pride, reflection, Reputation, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96, rumor, self-myth, silence, Stairway to Hell, stairwell, status, temptation, transformation, trauma, vulnerability, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 - Stairway to Hell As an engineering student with an analytical mind-trained in basic physics and mathematics, capable enough-my mind first studied her eyes in the college corridor.
She planted her right hand on the wall above my shoulder, stopping me mid-step as I began descending the stairs in the middle of the corridor.
Jovial, yet forceful.
Why wasn’t she afraid of Ronie?
She was just as tall as I was. Read more from here...

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