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Claim (24 years ago, in 28 February 2002)

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, adolescence, arrested development, coming-of-age, delayed-growth, depression themes, early disillusionment, emotional minimalism, emotional trauma, endurance, existential crisis, existential poetry, existential waiting, fatalism, first-love, grief narrative, humiliation, identity fracture, inner exile, inner monologue, Introspection, Isolation, loneliness, lost youth, memory and time, non-selfishness, outsider perspective, personal mythology, philosophical writing, Poetic prose, poetic-confession, Psychological realism, rain imagery, raw honesty, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, self-denial, silent suffering, smoke and rain, survival without hope, teenage loss, time stagnation, truth claim, unsynchronized life, waiting motif, window metaphor.

Claim (24 years ago, in 28 February 2002) Those which came and will come for years
Are all the same clouds,
Which rain and rain again.
In a way, the world might have changed,
But nothing has changed on this side of the window. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 105 — They Have Won

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: alignment, Betrayal, Bloody but Unbowed, character, City of Absence, Clean Intent, cremation-ground, Dark Night of the Soul, dignity, Empty Bed, Existentialism, first-order truth, Ghost, Grave, Gutter-Stoic, Hero’s Journey, humiliation, injustice, Institutionalized, Integrity, Internal Victory, Interrogated Intent, Invictus, Isolation, loneliness, Loud Intent, male vulnerability, Martyrdom, modern-poetry, Moral Spine., Polite Murder, raw emotion, recovery, Refusing to Kneel, rehab, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 105, Scapegoat, sobriety, Social Death, Special One, survival, The Abyss, They, They Have Won, trauma, Unbowed, Used, William Ernest Henley, won.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 105 - They Have Won They have won.
Everyone.
Those who never knew me dragged me into the gutter-
blamed me, discarded me, murdered me,
then tossed me into rehab. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 – Stairway to Hell

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abstinence, Agency, ambiguity, attention, awakening, boundaries, college, consent, consequence, Control, desire, Detachment, discipline, distance, dominance, ego, Ethics, fallout, friendship, Hierarchy, humiliation, identity, irony, loneliness, loss, lust, masculinity, memory, miscommunication, narrative, Observation, perception, performance, power, Pride, reflection, Reputation, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96, rumor, self-myth, silence, Stairway to Hell, stairwell, status, temptation, transformation, trauma, vulnerability, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 - Stairway to Hell As an engineering student with an analytical mind-trained in basic physics and mathematics, capable enough-my mind first studied her eyes in the college corridor.
She planted her right hand on the wall above my shoulder, stopping me mid-step as I began descending the stairs in the middle of the corridor.
Jovial, yet forceful.
Why wasn’t she afraid of Ronie?
She was just as tall as I was. Read more from here...

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Why Did She Humiliate Me?

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: animal-metaphor, anti-romance, biology, desire, Existentialism, Human nature, humiliation, hunger, Innocence, Intimacy., jungle-symbolism, loss, masculinity, modern-epic, mythic-poetry, philosophy, power, psychology, regret, restraint, self-knowledge, sexual-politics, tenderness, tragic-realism, unmet-love.

Title – Why Did She Humiliate Me? Why did she humiliate me so?
That heart-breaking woman laid me low.
To learn what happened, who he truly was,
he walked into the jungle, just because-
and lingered long in thought’s unyielding shade Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 78 – Back-to-Back Lightning

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology, Technology Tagged: Agency, Alienation, awakening, Back-to-Back, becoming, Body, character, confession, consent, Control, Defiance, desire, determinism, discipline, endurance, Existentialism, failure, gravity, humiliation, identity, journey, Laika, Lightning, masculinity, memory, myth, oath, obsession, orbit, philosophy, poetry, power, rejection, resolve, Ritual, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 78, Sacrifice, scar, shame, solitude, stoicism, survival, Threshold, trauma, truth, violence, void, Walking, will, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 78 - Back-to-Back Lightning Back-to-back idiocy-
two strikes that scorched the same sky.
The school one:
love at first sight in the morning,
rejected that very day, during recess. Read more from here...

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A Round Red Ball

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: attention, awareness, childhood, curiosity, Delhi, desire, disappointment, emotion, expectation, growth, humiliation, Innocence, learning, market, memory, nostalgia, Observation, parents, play, pleading, realization, rejection, shame, tantrum.

Ronie Dinosaur — Before the Walk: An Opening Statement

Title - A Round Red Ball In Delhi city, Karol Bagh’s bustling roar,
back in eighty-eight, before I knew the score,
I was four-a tiny explorer, wide-eyed and small-
when a bright red ball caught my heart in its thrall.
It sparkled there on the shopkeeper’s shelf, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 30 – No Place to Hide

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR Tagged: Barren, Calculation, Choice, Clevemess, Cost, Deficit, Drowning, Favor, fool, humiliation, Impossible, Incomplete, Lived, longing, Owed, power, Protection, Risked, shame, Simple, Sterilizes, Threshold, True, Vulnerable, Withheld.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 30 - No Place to Hide
Power teaches protection.
Protection teaches calculation.
Calculation sterilizes love.
Thus, the unfoolable heart is not advanced-
it is barren. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 15 – Metacognition

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absurdity, Apotheosis, Autopsy, character, Contempt, CosmicBlame., DystopianRomance, endurance, Existentialism, FinalFlaw, Forging, GenderDynamics, God, grief, Heartbreak, Hierarchy, HumanCondition, humiliation, InnerConflict, Integrity, Isolation, KingdomRuins, loneliness, longing, love, man, masculinity, Metacognition, mirror, Monologue, NakedEquality, PainSculpted, PerformanceAnxiety, PhilosophicalMaturity, Reciprocity, RonieDinosaur, SelfAwareness, SelfForgedGod, shame, Shiva, ShivaArchetype, SocietalRoles, solipsism, solitude, suffering, TestedMan, TheHighestBlade, TransactionalLove, trauma, UnconditionalLove, undeniable, UnmetNeed, vulnerability, witness, woman.

Ronie Dinosaur - Chapter 15: Metacognition My mind is trying to solve my own mind
and still can’t name the crime-
what for, what’s the big deal.
I have walked the entire distance
from blank confusion Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 14 – Luxury and Need

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, anger, Asceticism, Betrayal, Capitalism, character, CleanMind, Consumerism, Cursed, Deeds, Existentialism, fate, grief, humiliation, Incel, Intention, Intimacy., Isolation, Karma, Kingdom, loneliness, LuxuryAndNeed, MaleDespair, masculinity, Materialism, Modernity, philosophy, PrimalNeed, psychology, rejection, RelationshipDynamics, RomanticCynicism, RonieDinosaur, Ruins, Salao, SelfAwareness, SelfPity, SelfSabotage, Shiva, Socioeconomics, solitude, TimeBleedingOut, TransactionalLove, trauma, UnrequitedDesire, Virtue, vulnerability, Whoredom, Worthlessness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 14 – Luxury and Need Like heart, like character,
and so would be the desire and it's comprehension.
Whether it's pure luxury or primal need.
Your intention decides your deeds,
your deeds decide the fruit, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 2 – Unbreakable

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Existential Rehabism, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: anger, attention, authenticity, character, consequence, deception, depth, desire, devotion, ego, endurance, existential, fame, grief, human spirit, humiliation, identity, imitation, inspiration, Introspection, life lessons, loneliness, loss, mirror, morality, myth, mythology, narrative, observer, original character, originality, performance, perseverance, personal journey, philosophy, poetry, reflection, resilience, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur, Sati, self-awareness, self-discovery, shallow, Shiva, society critique, solitude, teaching, truth, unbroken, willpower, wisdom, witness.

I was silenced at my questions-
each one met with a quiet no.
No one ever saw
the artist’s heart hammering inside me,
the poet’s tongue,
the philosopher’s gaze. Read more from here...

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