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Palimpsest Poem

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, annotated poem, archival poetry, attachment, autobiographical poetry, confessional poetry, crossed-out text, distance and desire, documentary lyric, emotional asymmetry, emotional residue, endurance, evidence-based poetry, existential longing, first-order truth, grief, internal collapse, intimacy and distance, irreversible moment, lived reality, loneliness, longing without hope, love as demand, love without reciprocity, marginalia, memory and loss, Negation, obsession, Palimpsest, persistence, poem, private history, proof of love, psychological record, Refusal, refusal to romanticize, rejection, restraint, silence, solitude, storm metaphor, survival, temporal layering, truth over beauty, unrequited-love, vulnerability, waiting.

Palimpsest Poem If nothing saves you,
what do you still do?
What does one do?
What do you do?
And then what do I do? Read more from here...

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Anyways

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: awareness, body and mind, character in action, Choice, Courage, deliberate choice, divine vs human, emotional labor, endurance, ethical action, existential courage, existential reflection, existential terror, female ambiguity, godlike endurance, grief, Heartbreak, heartbreak resilience, human condition, human fragility, human struggle, Introspection, introspective epic, introspective prose, longing, Love and Loss, masculine restraint, meditative poetry, moral accounting, moral courage, moral responsibility, mortality, mythic metaphor, peacock metaphor, personal narrative, philosophical poetry, Psychological realism, reflective poetry, relational ethics, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, self-discipline, Self-mastery, stoicism, substance abuse, suffering, swan metaphor, temporal awareness, unrequited-love, walking anyway.

Anyways A god endured
thousands of years in exile,
drowned in grief-yet, sweetheart,
he feared neither death
nor darkness Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126 – Murdered Three Times

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: academic burnout, alcoholism, Alienation, broken ambition, circular fate, class violence, coercive education, courage misnamed, debt metaphor, detention, discipline as weapon, economic exploitation, emotional neglect, endurance, existential-fatigue, extinction metaphor, failure narrative, family betrayal, generational pressure, grief, hope collapse, identity erosion, institutional abuse, internalized blame, invisible labor, Isolation, loneliness, lost youth, love deprivation, masculinity crisis, memory loop, moral injury, Murdered, parental cruelty, rage, repetition compulsion, resignation, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126, self-destruction, self-prosecution, silence, silence as punishment, social exclusion, substance abuse, survival guilt, testimony, Three Times, time theft, trauma, wasted effort, witness without audience.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126 - Murdered Three Times The first blade was duty, sharp and bright.
The second was silence, endless night.
The third was the bottle-mercy in disguise.
It drank the last light from my eyes.
Now only the echo of footsteps replies. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: accountability, addiction-context, adulthood, Agency, autobiographical, Autonomy, character, cold-clarity, collapse, collapse-narrative, Collapsed Twice, consequence, dignity, Ethics, existential, family-expectation, grief, human condition, identity, Introspection, Isolation, judgment, literary-poetry, lived-experience, masculinity, mental health, minimalism, money-and-loneliness, moral-neutrality, non-redemptive, perception, philosophy, pressure, psychological, realism, recovery, recovery-path, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123, Selfhood, silence, social-pressure, stoicism, survival, testimony, trauma, truth-telling, Value.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice I collapsed twice in my life.
The first time was at twenty-one.
Family pressed in:
“Why aren’t you studying?
What are you even doing there? Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116 – Nehru Place, Twenty-Something

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: absence of light, angel chaos, bitterness, Bollywood song, character study, Delhi bus, dignity, emotional trauma, execution metaphor, existential poetry, failed romance, fate vs choice, fleeting connections, grief, Heartbreak, human fragility, Indian city life, inner darkness, lost-love, love without possession, masculine-vulnerability, memory, mental health, modern Indian poetry, Moral integrity, Nehru Place, Philosophical reflection, Psychological realism, quiet despair, rejection, resilience, respect in love, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116, scars, self-awareness, self-condemnation, silent witness, social judgment, solitude, survival, truth-telling, twenties, Twenty-Something, urban loneliness, war hero peace, youth disillusionment.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116 - Nehru Place, Twenty-Something Twenty-something,
college backpack heavy on my shoulders,
T-shirt and jeans,
standing by the front door of a crowded bus
headed to Nehru Place. Read more from here...

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Punishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, academic exile, Alienation, anger identity, Asceticism, austerity, burnout, chair motif, class pressure, depression, dignity hunger, discipline as violence, emotional poverty, emotional repression, endurance, existential reckoning, failure, grief, heat and cold imagery, identity fracture, Indian context, internal exile, intimacy avoidance, ledger metaphor, loss, love and flight, masculine shame, masculine-vulnerability, memory loops, moral accounting, nihilism, non-linear narrative, persistence, Psychological realism, rejection, restraint, self-punishment, self-sabotage, solitude, substance abuse, survival ethics, time distortion, trauma repetition, unfinished reckoning, unrealized potential, unrequited-love, witnessless suffering, working-class survival.

I returned home without a degree.
Detained for attendance shortages—the rules were never clearly explained.
I lost my best friend to another lecture hall,
and my obligation to become an engineer to another timeline.
Earlier still, I lost my worth as the studious boy
when a schoolgirl rejected me for someone “different.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 110 – Die Hungry Rather Than Kneel

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: addiction, Betrayal, bitterness, Bodybuilding, Boxer, Caretaking, Choice, Corona, Die Hungry, dignity, emotional-starvation, Engineering dropout, Father-son relationship, Financial success, Forging strength, grief, Hard work, Heart attack, honor, identity, Integrity, Iron character, Isolation, kneel, Lockdown, loneliness, longing, masculinity, Memories, Millionaire, Mother’s death, Names, No compromise, Nursing, Online dating, persistence, Poverty of soul, Pride, Public humiliation, purpose, raw, recovery, Redemption, rehab, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 110, Rust, Sacrifice, Scams, School rejection, Self-made, self-respect, sobriety, Social status, solitude, stoicism, success, survival, The past, The price of love, Thirty-seven, trauma, truth, Unfiltered, unrequited-love, walking alone, wealth, work-ethic.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 110 - Die Hungry Rather Than Kneel I was starving for affection-
simple human touch,
not just flesh-
when I considered paying a woman for sex.
It was the morning after my father’s heart attack, Read more from here...

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The Ronie Dinosaur Manifesto: I See You

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, ambition, being, Belonging, Brutal, character, connection, discipline, disillusionment, emptiness, endurance, Existentialism, failure, grief, Heartbreak, Honest, hope, human, Human nature, I See You, identity, Integrity, Isolation, journey, life, loneliness, longing, loss, manhood, Manifesto, Maturity, memory, pain, philosophy, raw, reality, rebirth, recovery, reflection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, searching, shadow, silence, sobriety, struggle, survival, The Ronie Dinosaur, Tragedy, truth, void, Walking, witness.

The Ronie Dinosaur Manifesto: I See You It has been a monotonously vast and monstrously cruel life.
Age is a shallow ruler; it cannot gauge the true depth of a soul, nor the savage amplitude of its emotional tides. I have lived at the summit of the Himalayas and in the crushing black of the Mariana Trench.
Life itself was my tutor, teaching me the brutal price of being in the wrong place at the wrong moment. I learned the cold gulf between power, money, and status-and the fragility of innocence. I learned that golden intent can still yield only lead. Character does not guarantee reward. And my love-a clean vessel-poured itself out and received nothing in return.
To hell with it all. I got nothing back.
She took mine and never returned it. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 – Reflection: The Lost Edge

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, character, consequence, deprivation, despair, dignity, direction, discipline, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, failure, fate, grief, hardship, honesty, human condition, hunger, identity, Introspection, loneliness, loss, masculinity, meaning, memory, Moral integrity, mortality, navigation, perseverance, post-trauma, poverty, realism, reckoning, reflection, Refusal, regret, rehabilitation, resilience, resolve, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95, self-analysis, Selfhood, stoicism, suffering, survival, The Lost Edge, truth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 - Reflection: The Lost Edge Back when youth was still on my side,
rejections stung-but I carried a quiet certainty
that my ethics, morals, and character were clean.
I was not wrong.
I told myself: one day a woman would see it, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 – What a Wonderful World

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Alienation, bleak clarity, brothel narrative, Capitalism, class consciousness, commodification, confessional poetry, contemporary poetry, death and illness, dignity, emotional deprivation, emotional-austerity, emotional-truth, ethical tension, Ethics, existential literature, first-person narrative, grief, honesty, Human Cost, human worth, Indian English poetry, intimacy without love, late modern poetry, loneliness, loss, masculinity, money and value, moral accounting, moral injury, nihilism resisted, personal philosophy, philosophical poetry, power dynamics, quiet rage, realism, realism-over-romance, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93, silence, social critique, social hypocrisy, solitude, solitude ethics, survivor voice, transactional intimacy, trauma writing, unsentimental writing, value collapse, vulnerability, Wonderful World.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 - What a Wonderful World My mother died two and a half years ago.
My father just suffered a heart attack.
At thirty-seven, single, I felt utterly unable to cope.
When I headed to the brothel, I knew exactly where I was going.
I kept telling myself: They don't give love; they sell what you pay for-and that's all you'll get. Read more from here...

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