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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: accountability, addiction-context, adulthood, Agency, autobiographical, Autonomy, character, cold-clarity, collapse, collapse-narrative, Collapsed Twice, consequence, dignity, Ethics, existential, family-expectation, grief, human condition, identity, Introspection, Isolation, judgment, literary-poetry, lived-experience, masculinity, mental health, minimalism, money-and-loneliness, moral-neutrality, non-redemptive, perception, philosophy, pressure, psychological, realism, recovery, recovery-path, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123, Selfhood, silence, social-pressure, stoicism, survival, testimony, trauma, truth-telling, Value.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice I collapsed twice in my life.
The first time was at twenty-one.
Family pressed in:
“Why aren’t you studying?
What are you even doing there? Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 118 – Neither Nor

Posted 5 months ago under Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 758 Days, accuracy, Archetypes, Asceticism, Athlete Philosopher, Beyond the Muse, blame, Delhi Poets, discipline, emotional intelligence, Field Report, Five Monasteries, High Character, Integrity, Intellectual Sovereignty, Inverted Casanova, Isolation, Male Experience, masculinity, Mastery, Mental Strength, modern philosophy, Neither, Neither Nor, Nor, obligation, On-Off Switch, Performance Disorder, philosophy, poetry, Post-Illusion, Radical Acceptance, recovery, rehab, Relationship Standards, resilience, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 118, Self-Belief, Self-Forgiveness, Shiva, Solo Walker, Sovereign Partnership, Spiritual Warfare, stoicism, survival, The Abyss, The Lighthouse, The Void, Truth-Teller, Unsold, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 118 – Neither Nor Neither submission nor aggression.
A woman who neither kneels nor strikes.
For the philosopher-athlete forged in one scarred body,
a companion who meets affection and responsibility in equal measure-
no reflex to drag him under, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117 – Canteen, First Year

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absolute Zero, Betrayal, burden, Canteen, character, Childhood Scars, College Life, Courage, desire, devotion, discipline, emotional intelligence, Empty Stadium, Exile, Existentialism, fate, First Year, first-love, first-order truth, Ghosting, Gnosticism, Heartbreak, Inner Artist, Integrity, intent, loneliness, masculinity, memory, Penance, philosophy, Reconciliation, recovery, Redemption, rehab, resilience, respect, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117, self-punishment, self-worth, Silent Gaze, Social Contract, solitude, Sovereignty, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, The Ledger, The Void, The Walk, trauma, truth, vulnerability.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 117 - Canteen, First Year So I stood in the canteen,
first-year,
the angriest young man on campus.
Armor on the outside,
an artist locked within. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 110 – Die Hungry Rather Than Kneel

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: addiction, Betrayal, bitterness, Bodybuilding, Boxer, Caretaking, Choice, Corona, Die Hungry, dignity, emotional-starvation, Engineering dropout, Father-son relationship, Financial success, Forging strength, grief, Hard work, Heart attack, honor, identity, Integrity, Iron character, Isolation, kneel, Lockdown, loneliness, longing, masculinity, Memories, Millionaire, Mother’s death, Names, No compromise, Nursing, Online dating, persistence, Poverty of soul, Pride, Public humiliation, purpose, raw, recovery, Redemption, rehab, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 110, Rust, Sacrifice, Scams, School rejection, Self-made, self-respect, sobriety, Social status, solitude, stoicism, success, survival, The past, The price of love, Thirty-seven, trauma, truth, Unfiltered, unrequited-love, walking alone, wealth, work-ethic.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 110 - Die Hungry Rather Than Kneel I was starving for affection-
simple human touch,
not just flesh-
when I considered paying a woman for sex.
It was the morning after my father’s heart attack, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 107 – What is Bad Luck?

Posted 5 months ago under Existential Rehabism, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, accountability, Agency, aging, Anatomy, bad luck, being, Body, Brutality, Change, Chapter 107., character, Choice, cold, Companion, decay, desire, Essence, fragility, growth, honesty, human condition, identity, intent, Iron, logic, loneliness, Luck, Maturity, minimalism, mirror, origin, philosophy, presence, recovery, resilience, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 107, Self-Audit, shadow, silence, sobriety, solitude, Source, Stasis, survival, Syllogism, Transcendence, truth, void, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 107 - What is Bad Luck? What is bad luck?
Wrong time,
wrong place.
Who chose that time, that place?
Who carried me there? Read more from here...

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Hymn to Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, anti-hero, authenticity, bare life, depression, discipline, emotional honesty, endurance, existential, Existentialism, human condition, human witness, Hymn, identity, indie folk, inner strength, Integrity, Isolation, lived-experience, loneliness, loss, meaning, middle age, no romance, no salvation, perseverance, quiet defiance, realism, realism poetry, recovery, rehab, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, sobriety, solitude, spoken word, stoicism, stripped hope, suffering, survival, testimony, truth, Walking, walking forward, witness.

Hymn to Ronie Dinosaur Verse 1 In a life monstrous, vast, and cruel beyond measure,
I’ve climbed Himalayan heights, plunged to trench’s dark treasure.
Wrong place, wrong time-life’s brutal lesson taught,
Power, money, status fade; innocence dearly bought. Read more from here...

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The Ronie Dinosaur Manifesto: I See You

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Achievement, ambition, being, Belonging, Brutal, character, connection, discipline, disillusionment, emptiness, endurance, Existentialism, failure, grief, Heartbreak, Honest, hope, human, Human nature, I See You, identity, Integrity, Isolation, journey, life, loneliness, longing, loss, manhood, Manifesto, Maturity, memory, pain, philosophy, raw, reality, rebirth, recovery, reflection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, searching, shadow, silence, sobriety, struggle, survival, The Ronie Dinosaur, Tragedy, truth, void, Walking, witness.

The Ronie Dinosaur Manifesto: I See You It has been a monotonously vast and monstrously cruel life.
Age is a shallow ruler; it cannot gauge the true depth of a soul, nor the savage amplitude of its emotional tides. I have lived at the summit of the Himalayas and in the crushing black of the Mariana Trench.
Life itself was my tutor, teaching me the brutal price of being in the wrong place at the wrong moment. I learned the cold gulf between power, money, and status-and the fragility of innocence. I learned that golden intent can still yield only lead. Character does not guarantee reward. And my love-a clean vessel-poured itself out and received nothing in return.
To hell with it all. I got nothing back.
She took mine and never returned it. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 105 — They Have Won

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: alignment, Betrayal, Bloody but Unbowed, character, City of Absence, Clean Intent, cremation-ground, Dark Night of the Soul, dignity, Empty Bed, Existentialism, first-order truth, Ghost, Grave, Gutter-Stoic, Hero’s Journey, humiliation, injustice, Institutionalized, Integrity, Internal Victory, Interrogated Intent, Invictus, Isolation, loneliness, Loud Intent, male vulnerability, Martyrdom, modern-poetry, Moral Spine., Polite Murder, raw emotion, recovery, Refusing to Kneel, rehab, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 105, Scapegoat, sobriety, Social Death, Special One, survival, The Abyss, They, They Have Won, trauma, Unbowed, Used, William Ernest Henley, won.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 105 - They Have Won They have won.
Everyone.
Those who never knew me dragged me into the gutter-
blamed me, discarded me, murdered me,
then tossed me into rehab. Read more from here...

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Obsession

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Anxiety, Autonomy, awareness, confinement, Control, counting, discipline, Existentialism, habit, identity, inner-motion, Isolation, mental-resilience, minimalism, obsession, persistence, psychological-poetry, recovery, Resistance, Ritual, Selfhood, solitude, survival, time.

Title - Obsession When anxiety waits,
people glance at the clock,
then again,
then again-
until it hardens into habit, Read more from here...

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