personal mythology – Read Poems aka Dinosaurs

I Look Like You — 20 Jan 2005

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005 poem, adolescent identity, autobiographical poem, decay and memory, early authorship, early heartbreak, emotional dependency, emotional honesty, emotional minimalism, emotional mirror, emotional mirroring, existential youth, fear retention, first love residue, fragile hope, ghost self, identity fracture, inner collapse, inner dialogue, internal critic, inward gaze, loneliness voice, longing presence, loss illusion, love projection, memory artifact, mirror imagery, non-performative art, personal archive, personal mythology, poetic fragment, private writing, psychological reflection, raw-poetry, self-alienation, self-criticism, self-erasure, self-growth anxiety, self-recognition failure, silent grief, teenage introspection, time capsule poem, unfinished self, unrequited-love, unsent confession, yellowed pages, youth despair.

I Look Like You — 20 Jan 2005 Did I know?
I am a ghost,
hiding a mirror in which
I can’t see myself.
Yet there is hope-an illusion: Read more from here...

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No Such Girl Though — 10 December 2005

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005 diary, abandonment fear, adolescent trauma, artistic documentation, autobiographical poem, coming of age pain, creative survival, early authorship, early identity crisis, early poetry, emotional endurance, emotional honesty, emotional isolation, emotional residue, existential numbness, first love wound, first rejection, handwritten lyrics, inner child voice, innocence lost, lived-experience, loneliness imagery, love refusal, memory artifact, mental exhaustion, noncommercial art, obsessive repetition, personal archive, personal mythology, poetic artifact, private grief, psychological looping, raw songwriting, raw-confession, rejected confession, rejection memory, self-talk poetry, solitude themes, teenage heartbreak, time and decay, time capsule writing, trauma imprint, unpolished writing, unrequited-love, unsent song, vulnerability in art, yellowed pages, youth despair.

No Such Girl Though — 10 December 2005 From green and blue to stars in black,
I just can’t contact—
my shout can’t catch—
I am bound to react.
If she hates me, then it’s okay, because she does. Read more from here...

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Claim (24 years ago, in 28 February 2002)

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, adolescence, arrested development, coming-of-age, delayed-growth, depression themes, early disillusionment, emotional minimalism, emotional trauma, endurance, existential crisis, existential poetry, existential waiting, fatalism, first-love, grief narrative, humiliation, identity fracture, inner exile, inner monologue, Introspection, Isolation, loneliness, lost youth, memory and time, non-selfishness, outsider perspective, personal mythology, philosophical writing, Poetic prose, poetic-confession, Psychological realism, rain imagery, raw honesty, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, self-denial, silent suffering, smoke and rain, survival without hope, teenage loss, time stagnation, truth claim, unsynchronized life, waiting motif, window metaphor.

Claim (24 years ago, in 28 February 2002) Those which came and will come for years
Are all the same clouds,
Which rain and rain again.
In a way, the world might have changed,
But nothing has changed on this side of the window. Read more from here...

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Ronie iz BaD Song – Oct 2005

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2004 separation, 2005 writing, August 13 2005, autobiographical poem, basketball court, bodily awareness, campus life, canteen writing, college years, darkness and light, document not performance, early work, electric heart, emotional crisis, endurance, grief record, honest suffering, human fragility, internal monologue, Isolation, lived-experience, memory and trauma, origin text, personal archive, personal mythology, place-based writing, post-breakup writing, pre-internet expression, Psychological realism, raw-confession, refusal to disappear, repetition as coping, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie iz BaD, Ronie persona, self-observation, solitude, song, spoken-word cadence, staying alive, survival document, time-stamped literature, unfiltered voice, unsanitized past, urban night, walking through pain, witness poetry, youth and despair.

Title: Ronie iz BaD [Verse 1] Nowhere am I caught red-handed.
My being has attempted such suicide.
Is there any meaning
in a dog’s bark thumping my red electrical heart, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 133 – Impact of Courage

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: aftermath writing, anti-hope philosophy, anti-sentimentality, black bird myth, character weight, clarity-over-comfort, cold flame, controlled anger, Courage, courage ethic, disciplined will, doctrine verse, emotional-austerity, endurance literature, endurance without reward, existential manual, existential poetry, fate symbolism, fire stewardship, grief discipline, Impact, injury of courage, inner authority, inner law, iron imagery, loss ethics, loss without consolation, minimalist intensity, mythic compression, non-possessive love, operational language, peacocking monsters, personal mythology, philosophical poetry, post-romantic verse, Psychological realism, quiet defiance, refusal of spectacle, refusal-to-beg, resilience myth, resolve narrative, restraint over impulse, secular spirituality, self-governance, stewardship ethic, stoic fire, strength doctrine, truth without hope, uncompromising voice, will as fuel.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 133 - Impact of Courage Food heat, spice heat,
the rush of young blood,
the fever of a misfiring mind-
all cheap, fleeting trash.
Against them burns something colder, cleaner: Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 132 – The World Runs on Courage

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: anti-romance, Courage, dignity in loss, emotional ethics, emotional integrity, emotional minimalism, emotional restraint, endurance without reward, ethical love, existential poetry, existential walking, grief discipline, grief processing, human core, human residue, inner courage, inner witness, internalized myth, introspective literature, inward resistance, loneliness narrative, masculine-vulnerability, modern myth, moral stamina, mythic realism, non-transactional love, personal cosmology, personal mythology, philosophical verse, poetic defiance, post-romantic poetry, Psychological realism, quiet endurance, quiet heroism, refusal of consumption, refusal of spectacle, refusal-to-beg, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 132, silent loyalty, solitary resolve, spiritual secularism, stoic movement, survivor voice, symbolic monsters, tragic clarity, truth-without-consolation, unrequited-love, unsaid love, walking metaphor, World Runs, wounded narrator.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 132 – The World Runs on Courage The world runs on courage alone-
otherwise the monsters
would have devoured everything.
Somewhere in her heart,
something must have been saved for me too; Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 125 – Where do I go?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, acceptance without hope, adaptation to pain, Alienation, breathing underwater, cosmic imagery, cosmic indifference, desire, despair without melodrama, Detachment, drowning metaphor, emotional realism, existential poetry, fatalism, godlessness, grief without closure, human insignificance, identity erosion, inner exile, inward gaze, loneliness, longing, Loss of innocence, love without reciprocity, Meaninglessness, memory vs atoms, metaphysical loss, missed youth, modern existentialism, modern verse, nihilistic love, obsession, personal mythology, philosophical poetry, reflective verse, rehabilitation, resignation, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 125, secular spirituality, self-awareness, shadow chasing, silent suffering, solitude, spiritual absence, truth and illusion, unanswered prayer, unfulfilled desire, unrequited-love, Where do I go, witnessless suffering.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 125 - Where do I go? Some found God.
Some found the one God carved out just for them.
I found neither God
nor even a fleeting glimpse of my beloved.
The universe flared into being and winked out again- Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur – The Unsold Man

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: anger, anti-compromise, character, College Life, Defiance, detention, dignity, discipline, endurance, Existentialism, extinction metaphor, failure, fate, first-love, hunger, inner flame, Integrity, intent, labor, loneliness, man, masculine identity, Moral Spine., nonconformity, Outsider, personal mythology, poverty, Pride, rebellion, Refusal, refusal to kneel, rehabilitation, rejection, resilience, restraint, road narrative, Ronie Dinosaur, self-authorship, self-respect, silence, solitude, stoicism, strength, survival, The Unsold Man, truth, unreciprocated-love, Unsold, unsold soul, upright man, walking alone.

Ronie Dinosaur (The Unsold Man) (Verse 1) I loved at first sight, got laughed at by noon,
turned the pain into iron, forged muscle from ruin.
College crowned me king, girls kept my seat warm,
but the one who held my heart said, “No, that’s not the form.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113 – The Weight of My Efforts

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Autonomy, character, constancy, dharma, dignity, discipline, Efforts, emotional-austerity, endurance, ethical-stance, existential weight, hunger, identity, Indian Philosophy, inner conflict, Integrity, inward journey, loneliness, masculinity, moral conviction, moral-cost, mythic symbolism, nonconformity, permanence, personal mythology, philosophy, power dynamics, principles, Ram, Ravana, Refusal, refusal to bargain, rejection, resolve, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113, Sacrifice, self-examination, Self-mastery, self-respect, Selfhood, silence, solitude, spiritual endurance, stoicism, truth, weight, will, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113 - The Weight of My Efforts At first glance, it might seem
I am a hungry man, his meal denied him-
unwise, easily fooled.
But read again, hear my words deeper:
I was right, with pure intent and character, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 103 – Reflection: Love Without Witness

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: character and restraint, confessional poetry, dignity in love, dignity over pleasure, emotional asymmetry, emotional isolation, emotional restraint, ethical suffering, existential romance, failed intimacy, grief without spectacle, human limitation, inner discipline, internal-conflict, introspective verse, invisible love, literary introspection, loneliness and time, love, love and character, love as illusion, love without witness, memory and loss, modern tragic love, moral endurance, moral-loneliness, personal mythology, personal narrative, philosophical poetry, Philosophical reflection, poetic realism, poetic rejection, psychological depth, quiet heartbreak, reflection, reflective chapter, rejection poetry, restrained desire, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 103, self-awareness, silent devotion, solitude and meaning, time and consequence, time as witness, truth in restraint, unreciprocated-love, unreturned affection, unseen sacrifice, unspectacular love, witness, witnessless devotion.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 103 - Reflection: Love Without Witness I loved you with character.
I still do.
Love poured from the heart
spills as emotion, visible to all.
Love from the flesh Read more from here...

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