Chapter 37 – Life Taught Me Restraint

Chapter 37 - Life Taught Me Restraint Life Taught Me Restraint - Part I Restraint became my native tongue;
desire learned to speak only in silence.
I hid the wanting so well
even I forgot its shape. Read more from here...
Believe

What you think, you become.
What if I am the real son of a gun-
the lucky one?
I am no ambassador for bad luck,
no role model for a sitting duck.
I hold the power to change my world. Read more from here...
Twelve Long Years

From age 21 to 33 - twelve long years - I kept my body and my heart locked away from any woman. I didn't touch a single girl for twelve years.
Now, at 42, I still have no girlfriend, no hand to hold, no voice that calls me hers - never had.
I didn’t finish my degree, and I carried the debt of my parents’ favours - debts I had to repay, along with the blame of running away from my obligations.
Still, I earned about 300,000 dollars in that time, without anyone investing a dime in me.
Childhood vanished into studying for a future I never reached, and most of my youth burned up fulfilling duties that never fed my soul.
I walked away from my studies because they no longer served my purpose - books couldn’t give me the emotional intelligence I needed to talk to a girl, to express myself, to be human in the ways that matter. Read more from here...
