Ronie Dinosaur

Title - Original In between the two points of reference- from humiliation to respect in my own eyes- that’s who I am. That’s the weight. Read more from here...

Title - Monstrously, Monotonously Vast Sometimes I talk to snakes, and sometimes I think of her- only realizing it later. Through iron bars, the moon, snagged in black branches. Read more from here...

The girl I loved at first sight turned away, humiliated me outside my new classroom door. I thought hard, saw my lack of emotional grace, swore no one would hurt me like that anymore. So I built strength-the athlete was born in pain, the philosopher woke in the dark before. Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 71 - Cruel Intentions In love, there are no secrets. If they still exist in her-and she cannot tell or explain why, even after I ask with my whole heart, again and again-and if it keeps getting worse, then it’s time I accept the truth: she didn’t love me. She loved the way I made her feel special, and even that was ordinary to her. Love that keeps me waiting, that sees me cry in pain and continues to do the same things that hurt me, is not love. It’s clear she thinks love is foolish, and she considers herself smart enough to treat me poorly, even in front of my own eyes. This is not a trust issue, no matter how often she throws that word at me. This is her character. Even after giving her my whole world, she keeps the door open-selling me a dream and delivering a nightmare. I tell her every day that I miss her, even in the space between seconds. She never misses a chance to make me feel unwanted, sometimes even laughing at my misery. That is a choice. Nothing else. She makes excuses for not choosing me. She keeps doing things that make me feel ashamed of the love I give her, while pretending she never takes advantage. She manipulates, dictates, and lectures me-saying love should not be proud or loud-while I stay patient, absorbing everything, still hoping for her love. Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 62 - Humiliation To counter humiliation from a girl in school- love at first sight- I armed myself with pride and silence. The next time I stood before a girl, Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 32 - Just Stupid Mirror, mirror on the wall, who’s the fairest maiden of them all? What kind of man am I? What kind of heart do I have? What is my mind capable of? Read more from here...

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 22 - Beauty This is not Instagram poetry. It is not workshop poetry. It is closer to existential field notes- written by someone counting steps, not applause. Ronie Dinosaur walking Read more from here...

I was silenced at my questions- each one met with a quiet no. No one ever saw the artist’s heart hammering inside me, the poet’s tongue, the philosopher’s gaze. Read more from here...