Isolation – Page 2 – Read Poems aka Dinosaurs

Claim (24 years ago, in 28 February 2002)

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, adolescence, arrested development, coming-of-age, delayed-growth, depression themes, early disillusionment, emotional minimalism, emotional trauma, endurance, existential crisis, existential poetry, existential waiting, fatalism, first-love, grief narrative, humiliation, identity fracture, inner exile, inner monologue, Introspection, Isolation, loneliness, lost youth, memory and time, non-selfishness, outsider perspective, personal mythology, philosophical writing, Poetic prose, poetic-confession, Psychological realism, rain imagery, raw honesty, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, self-denial, silent suffering, smoke and rain, survival without hope, teenage loss, time stagnation, truth claim, unsynchronized life, waiting motif, window metaphor.

Claim (24 years ago, in 28 February 2002) Those which came and will come for years
Are all the same clouds,
Which rain and rain again.
In a way, the world might have changed,
But nothing has changed on this side of the window. Read more from here...

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Ronie iz BaD Song – Oct 2005

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2004 separation, 2005 writing, August 13 2005, autobiographical poem, basketball court, bodily awareness, campus life, canteen writing, college years, darkness and light, document not performance, early work, electric heart, emotional crisis, endurance, grief record, honest suffering, human fragility, internal monologue, Isolation, lived-experience, memory and trauma, origin text, personal archive, personal mythology, place-based writing, post-breakup writing, pre-internet expression, Psychological realism, raw-confession, refusal to disappear, repetition as coping, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie iz BaD, Ronie persona, self-observation, solitude, song, spoken-word cadence, staying alive, survival document, time-stamped literature, unfiltered voice, unsanitized past, urban night, walking through pain, witness poetry, youth and despair.

Title: Ronie iz BaD [Verse 1] Nowhere am I caught red-handed.
My being has attempted such suicide.
Is there any meaning
in a dog’s bark thumping my red electrical heart, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126 – Murdered Three Times

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: academic burnout, alcoholism, Alienation, broken ambition, circular fate, class violence, coercive education, courage misnamed, debt metaphor, detention, discipline as weapon, economic exploitation, emotional neglect, endurance, existential-fatigue, extinction metaphor, failure narrative, family betrayal, generational pressure, grief, hope collapse, identity erosion, institutional abuse, internalized blame, invisible labor, Isolation, loneliness, lost youth, love deprivation, masculinity crisis, memory loop, moral injury, Murdered, parental cruelty, rage, repetition compulsion, resignation, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126, self-destruction, self-prosecution, silence, silence as punishment, social exclusion, substance abuse, survival guilt, testimony, Three Times, time theft, trauma, wasted effort, witness without audience.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 126 - Murdered Three Times The first blade was duty, sharp and bright.
The second was silence, endless night.
The third was the bottle-mercy in disguise.
It drank the last light from my eyes.
Now only the echo of footsteps replies. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 124 – Where Are You?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, ambiguity, authenticity, Betrayal, character test, cultural hypocrisy, despair, dignity, dignity in pain, emotional endurance, emotional exile, emotional injustice, emotional neglect, empty chair, ethical suffering, existential pain, exploitation, fractured identity, human hunger, inner collapse, Integrity, intimacy denied, invisibility, Isolation, loneliness, longing, love economy, manipulation, misread intent, moral restraint, moral-loneliness, power imbalance, psychological trauma, purity punished, rejection, restraint ethics, restraint-vs-desire, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 124, self-respect, shadow-self, silence, sincerity, social alienation, social cruelty, spiritual absence, thirst metaphor, transactional love, unrequited-love, unseen man, Where Are You.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 124 - Where Are You? I have spent my whole life in thirst.
Where did everyone go?
Why did no one come to me?
She did everything with everyone else,
yet never even glanced my way. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: accountability, addiction-context, adulthood, Agency, autobiographical, Autonomy, character, cold-clarity, collapse, collapse-narrative, Collapsed Twice, consequence, dignity, Ethics, existential, family-expectation, grief, human condition, identity, Introspection, Isolation, judgment, literary-poetry, lived-experience, masculinity, mental health, minimalism, money-and-loneliness, moral-neutrality, non-redemptive, perception, philosophy, pressure, psychological, realism, recovery, recovery-path, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123, Selfhood, silence, social-pressure, stoicism, survival, testimony, trauma, truth-telling, Value.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice I collapsed twice in my life.
The first time was at twenty-one.
Family pressed in:
“Why aren’t you studying?
What are you even doing there? Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 121 – 103 Degrees Low

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: burning calm, controlled fury, dark romance, dignity, emotional control, emotional honesty, emotional precision, emotional survival, emotional temperature, endurance, Heartbreak, hidden turmoil, inner fire, inner flame, inner war, internal-conflict, iron will, Isolation, lyrical storytelling, masculinity, mental battle, personal myth, poetic intensity, poetic metaphor, poetic noir, Pride, private hell, psychological heat, quiet rage, rejection, rejection pain, rejection trauma, resilience, restraint, self-discipline, self-respect, silent suffering, solitude, solitude path, stoicism, strength, suppressed anger, unresolved feelings, vulnerability, walking away.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 121 - 103 Degrees Low Verse 1 Feeling doesn’t make it real-
only knowing does.
I burned inside; you never felt
the fire I carried just because. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 118 – Neither Nor

Posted 5 months ago under Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 758 Days, accuracy, Archetypes, Asceticism, Athlete Philosopher, Beyond the Muse, blame, Delhi Poets, discipline, emotional intelligence, Field Report, Five Monasteries, High Character, Integrity, Intellectual Sovereignty, Inverted Casanova, Isolation, Male Experience, masculinity, Mastery, Mental Strength, modern philosophy, Neither, Neither Nor, Nor, obligation, On-Off Switch, Performance Disorder, philosophy, poetry, Post-Illusion, Radical Acceptance, recovery, rehab, Relationship Standards, resilience, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 118, Self-Belief, Self-Forgiveness, Shiva, Solo Walker, Sovereign Partnership, Spiritual Warfare, stoicism, survival, The Abyss, The Lighthouse, The Void, Truth-Teller, Unsold, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 118 – Neither Nor Neither submission nor aggression.
A woman who neither kneels nor strikes.
For the philosopher-athlete forged in one scarred body,
a companion who meets affection and responsibility in equal measure-
no reflex to drag him under, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 – What Is Time?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Physics, Psychology Tagged: Absence, aging, awareness, consciousness, Continuity, cosmic indifference, distance, emotional gravity, emotional-truth, entropy, existence, existential reflection, Heartbreak, Human Cost, human finitude, identity, impermanence, inevitability, inner witness, inwardness, Isolation, longing, loss, love deferred, memory, metaphysics, missed timing, nostalgia, parallel lives, perception, persistence, personal-history, philosophical poetry, photon, physics metaphor, reality, regret, relativity, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112, self-recognition, separation, silence, solitude, subjective time, temporality, time, unrealized futures, unrequited-love, waiting, What Is Time.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 112 - What Is Time? A change in status in someone’s heart.
Yesterday, I was everything.
Today, I cannot even greet you as an equal-
you, another man’s wife,
your children now the age we were Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 111 – Extreme Sports

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Anti-consumerism, Asceticism, authenticity, character, closure, Contemporary India, darkness, dignity, discipline, Divine union, Exile, Extreme Sports, Famine of the heart, finality, first-order truth, Heroism, honor, Human needs, identity, Integrity, Isolation, legend, loneliness, masculinity, Modern monk, Moving on, mythic, philosophical-fiction, Psychological study, Ram and Sita, raw truth, resilience, Roaring, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 111, Sacrifice, Self-Reliance, Shiva and Parvati, silence, Social commentary, soul, Spiritual hunger, stoicism, survival, The dinosaur., The mirror, The path, Transcendence, truth seeking, Unbowed, Walking.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 111 - Extreme Sports When even character cannot clear the path,
the spirit directs.
Better the slow famine of the upright heart
than the quick feast of a bent knee.
Let others gorge on counterfeit warmth; Read more from here...

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