Refusal – Page 2 – Read Poems aka Dinosaurs

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 by Ronie Dinosaur

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: 2005, aftermath, aging, archival writing, authenticity, boundaries, confessional poetry, crossed-out poem, diary poem, distance, early twenties, emotional clarity, emotional discipline, endurance, first-love, growth, handwriting, Heartbreak, history, Indian college, longing, longing without consent, loss, memory, naming absence, paper artifacts, plea, private writing, Refusal, refusal to send, regret, repetition, restraint, restraint learned, Ronie, self-awareness, self-command, silence, solitude, song lyrics, testimony, time, unrequited-love, unsent letter, voice, vulnerability, waiting, witness, yellowed pages, youth melancholy.

Sing — 07 Feb 2005 Sing,
sing for me,
I am waiting for you.
Oh, it doesn’t rain now;
everything just seems Read more from here...

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Sorcery

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, ambiguity, autobiographical fiction, body language, boundaries, character, confession, consent, desire, dignity, discipline, disillusionment, emotional labor, first-order truth, Heartbreak, Intimacy., Kaliyug myth, longing, loss, masculinity, modern alienation, Modernity, moral economy, mythic voice, peacock metaphor, power dynamics, Pride, Psychological realism, Purity, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint ethics, romantic idealism, Ronie Dinosaur, self-respect, Selfhood, solitude, Sorcery, stoicism, swan metaphor, symbolism, transformation, unrequited-love, vulnerability, will.

Sorcery I came back having lost-so who has ever come back having won?
I lived by my own will; this is not called losing.
I became Ronie to the whole world-from five-year-old children to everyone at the table, at the door, or on the floor.
In return for the love I gave the boy within me, I could not gather love from a girl for myself.
The generosity of my spirit, my character in action, my golden intent-and yet my desire proved fruitless. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 135 – What Is Ronie Dinosaur Who’s Still Walking

Posted 5 months ago under Artificial Intelligence, DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: anti-automation, anti-credentialism, authenticity, authorship, becoming, character, creator-mindset, depth-over-status, dignity, endurance, existential walk, Existentialism, human core, human residue, identity, inner law, lived-truth, loneliness, long-walk, meaning-making, modern-masculinity, mythic symbolism, narrative-identity, nonconformity, original voice, pain-transformed, persistence, philosophical poetry, post-romance, Refusal, refusal-to-bend, rejection, resilience, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 135, scars, self-sovereignty, self-witness, Selfhood, silence, solitude, Still Walking, survival, testimony, time-density, truth-over-reward, uncommodifiable, unreplicable, Walking, What Is Ronie Dinosaur.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 135 – What Is Ronie Dinosaur Who’s Still Walking [Verse 1] You followed the map they drew on the wall,
took every turn the syllabus told.
I walked through fire no textbook recalls,
burned till the ashes turned into gold. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127 – What Is Love?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Alienation, asymmetry, boundaries, chosen deprivation, consent, desire, dignity, dominance, emotional ethics, emotional mismatch, Ethics, gun metaphor, hunger-metaphor, identity, inner conflict, inner law, Integrity, Intimacy., invisible rupture, longing, love, masculine restraint, misunderstanding, modern romance, moral injury, morality, non-consummation, philosophy, power, power dynamics, psychology, quiet violence, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint versus appetite, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127, self-control, silence, silence as violence, starvation, submission, surrender, trauma, unmet desire, unrecognized virtue, vulnerability, What Is Love.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127 - What Is Love? A seat in the university lecture hall
always saved for me-
her Ronie, the only one allowed to sit.
She would wait in the room,
never calling, never texting, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur – The Unsold Man

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: anger, anti-compromise, character, College Life, Defiance, detention, dignity, discipline, endurance, Existentialism, extinction metaphor, failure, fate, first-love, hunger, inner flame, Integrity, intent, labor, loneliness, man, masculine identity, Moral Spine., nonconformity, Outsider, personal mythology, poverty, Pride, rebellion, Refusal, refusal to kneel, rehabilitation, rejection, resilience, restraint, road narrative, Ronie Dinosaur, self-authorship, self-respect, silence, solitude, stoicism, strength, survival, The Unsold Man, truth, unreciprocated-love, Unsold, unsold soul, upright man, walking alone.

Ronie Dinosaur (The Unsold Man) (Verse 1) I loved at first sight, got laughed at by noon,
turned the pain into iron, forged muscle from ruin.
College crowned me king, girls kept my seat warm,
but the one who held my heart said, “No, that’s not the form.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113 – The Weight of My Efforts

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Autonomy, character, constancy, dharma, dignity, discipline, Efforts, emotional-austerity, endurance, ethical-stance, existential weight, hunger, identity, Indian Philosophy, inner conflict, Integrity, inward journey, loneliness, masculinity, moral conviction, moral-cost, mythic symbolism, nonconformity, permanence, personal mythology, philosophy, power dynamics, principles, Ram, Ravana, Refusal, refusal to bargain, rejection, resolve, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113, Sacrifice, self-examination, Self-mastery, self-respect, Selfhood, silence, solitude, spiritual endurance, stoicism, truth, weight, will, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113 - The Weight of My Efforts At first glance, it might seem
I am a hungry man, his meal denied him-
unwise, easily fooled.
But read again, hear my words deeper:
I was right, with pure intent and character, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 104 — Restraint

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: austere lyricism, character, Control, cult poetry, Delayed Gratification, desire withheld, devotion without possession, dignity, discipline, emotional minimalism, emotional-austerity, ethical desire, ethical eros, existential romance, Existentialism, grief addressed sideways, hunger, hunger-metaphor, imagination, inner law, Integrity, Interior Monologue, intimacy without touch, loneliness, longing, masculine restraint, masculinity, memory, Mental Mastery, modern asceticism, Moral High Ground, moral tension, noncommercial poetry, nonperformative love, Originality vs Copy, post-romantic writing, principled refusal, Psychological realism, psychological-poetry, quiet intensity, Refusal, refusal culture, relational philosophy, restraint, restraint as power, restraint ideology, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 104, self-awareness, self-denial, slow burn, South Asian Literature, tension, The Godown, The Zeigarnik Effect, thirst, unconsummated love, Unfinished Business, unmet desire, unsentimental-love.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 104 - Restraint A hungry stomach never forgets why I let her go.
An upright character remembers-down to the last detail-why I walked away.
My heart aches
not for what happened,
not for what might have been, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 102 – Still Alive

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Agency, alignment, ascetic resolve, Autonomy, Betrayal, Buddha, character, consciousness, dignity, endurance, endurance poetry, Existentialism, fate, free will, hunger, identity, inner law, inner strength, Integrity, Jesus, Kaliyug, Karma, moral clarity, mythology, philosophical poetry, poverty, Ram, Refusal, refusal to break, rejection, renunciation, resilience, Sacrifice, Selfhood, Shiva, solitude, spiritual defiance, stoicism, suffering, survival, survival ethics, truth, unchosen love, will, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 102 - Still Alive Live in your delusion that I will die-
the more you test me,
the more I’ll become like Ram.
The more pain I swallow,
the more I’ll rise like Shiva. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 – Reflection: The Lost Edge

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, character, consequence, deprivation, despair, dignity, direction, discipline, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, failure, fate, grief, hardship, honesty, human condition, hunger, identity, Introspection, loneliness, loss, masculinity, meaning, memory, Moral integrity, mortality, navigation, perseverance, post-trauma, poverty, realism, reckoning, reflection, Refusal, regret, rehabilitation, resilience, resolve, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95, self-analysis, Selfhood, stoicism, suffering, survival, The Lost Edge, truth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 - Reflection: The Lost Edge Back when youth was still on my side,
rejections stung-but I carried a quiet certainty
that my ethics, morals, and character were clean.
I was not wrong.
I told myself: one day a woman would see it, Read more from here...

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