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Punishment

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, academic exile, Alienation, anger identity, Asceticism, austerity, burnout, chair motif, class pressure, depression, dignity hunger, discipline as violence, emotional poverty, emotional repression, endurance, existential reckoning, failure, grief, heat and cold imagery, identity fracture, Indian context, internal exile, intimacy avoidance, ledger metaphor, loss, love and flight, masculine shame, masculine-vulnerability, memory loops, moral accounting, nihilism, non-linear narrative, persistence, Psychological realism, rejection, restraint, self-punishment, self-sabotage, solitude, substance abuse, survival ethics, time distortion, trauma repetition, unfinished reckoning, unrealized potential, unrequited-love, witnessless suffering, working-class survival.

I returned home without a degree.
Detained for attendance shortages—the rules were never clearly explained.
I lost my best friend to another lecture hall,
and my obligation to become an engineer to another timeline.
Earlier still, I lost my worth as the studious boy
when a schoolgirl rejected me for someone “different.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113 – The Weight of My Efforts

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Autonomy, character, constancy, dharma, dignity, discipline, Efforts, emotional-austerity, endurance, ethical-stance, existential weight, hunger, identity, Indian Philosophy, inner conflict, Integrity, inward journey, loneliness, masculinity, moral conviction, moral-cost, mythic symbolism, nonconformity, permanence, personal mythology, philosophy, power dynamics, principles, Ram, Ravana, Refusal, refusal to bargain, rejection, resolve, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113, Sacrifice, self-examination, Self-mastery, self-respect, Selfhood, silence, solitude, spiritual endurance, stoicism, truth, weight, will, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 113 - The Weight of My Efforts At first glance, it might seem
I am a hungry man, his meal denied him-
unwise, easily fooled.
But read again, hear my words deeper:
I was right, with pure intent and character, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108 – The Gift I Never Unwrapped

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Absence, accountability, attitude, Betrayal, boundaries, Brothel, Chapter 108, character, Choice, consent, cynicism, discarded, disillusionment, Engineering College, equality, Forty-two, gift, heart, honor, Human Responsibility, Innocence, Integrity, intent, irony, Irresponsible, logic, masculine-vulnerability, masculinity, memory, naive, narrative, pain, philosophy, Practicality, presence, reality, rejection, respect, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108, Ruin, Satellite, Seduction, self-respect, silence, stoicism, Submissive, The Gift, truth, Unwrapped, Unwrapped Gift, withdrawal, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 108 – The Gift I Never Unwrapped After giving you so much love,
after caring so deeply,
after orbiting you like a satellite,
after never once demanding you from yourself-
I kept you safe, like a gift saved for the perfect moment, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 104 — Restraint

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: austere lyricism, character, Control, cult poetry, Delayed Gratification, desire withheld, devotion without possession, dignity, discipline, emotional minimalism, emotional-austerity, ethical desire, ethical eros, existential romance, Existentialism, grief addressed sideways, hunger, hunger-metaphor, imagination, inner law, Integrity, Interior Monologue, intimacy without touch, loneliness, longing, masculine restraint, masculinity, memory, Mental Mastery, modern asceticism, Moral High Ground, moral tension, noncommercial poetry, nonperformative love, Originality vs Copy, post-romantic writing, principled refusal, Psychological realism, psychological-poetry, quiet intensity, Refusal, refusal culture, relational philosophy, restraint, restraint as power, restraint ideology, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 104, self-awareness, self-denial, slow burn, South Asian Literature, tension, The Godown, The Zeigarnik Effect, thirst, unconsummated love, Unfinished Business, unmet desire, unsentimental-love.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 104 - Restraint A hungry stomach never forgets why I let her go.
An upright character remembers-down to the last detail-why I walked away.
My heart aches
not for what happened,
not for what might have been, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 101 – Life’s High

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: addiction metaphor, addiction to life, authenticity, clarity through suffering, confession without apology, delayed fulfillment, desire vs consumption, dignity in hunger, disciplined longing, emotional hunger, emotional precision, empty abundance, endurance, existential choice, existential poetry, high and crash, hunger of the heart, hunger-metaphor, integrity over abundance, intensity ethic, internal exile, life as intoxication, Life’s High, life’s wager, lived-experience, loneliness with agency, masculine solitude, menu illusion, moral appetite, one-woman vow, patience as resistance, philosophical romance, poetic minimalism, refusal of consolation, refusal of substitutes, rehab clarity, rejection of excess, restraint, romantic absolutism, romantic austerity, romantic realism, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 101, scarcity of meaning, selective desire, self-awareness, self-mythology, solitude by choice, starvation as stance, uncompromising desire, unfulfilled promise.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 101 - Life’s High Life, too, is an addiction, my friend-
when it rises,
don’t ask what state it leaves you in.
When it crashes,
people lie scattered on the streets, sunk in depression. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98 — Nothing

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: authenticity, bitterness refined, desire vs fulfillment, disenchanted love, emotional neglect, emotional-austerity, emotional-starvation, emptiness, existential hunger, existential poetry, finality, hunger of the soul, hunger-metaphor, inner exile, internal exile, intimacy hunger, lived-experience, loneliness, longing, love as sustenance, masculine-vulnerability, modern confessional, moral injury, moral solitude, nihilistic clarity, nothing, nothingness, outsider perspective, poetic despair, poetic minimalism, poetic truth, post-romantic realism, psychological scars, quiet rage, refusal of compromise, refusal of substitutes, rehab narrative, resignation, restraint, romantic disillusionment, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98, scarcity mindset, self-awareness, slow self-destruction, social alienation, stoic despair, survivor’s guilt, unmet promises, unrequited-love, wounded integrity.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98 — Nothing My heart was clean, yet I was blamed-
and I remained hungry.
Everyone drank deep, ate full,
and now sleeps well,
satisfied in the warm hush of having enough. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 97 — Reflection: Misfired

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Artist vs Man, Branded Useless, College Memories, coming-of-age, Confessional, Consent Culture, desire, Disconnection, emotional intelligence, Emotional Void, Four Years of College, Fragmented Love, Heartbreak, Helipad Metaphor, High Character, Hourglass, Human Connection, identity, Integrity, Interior Monologue, Intimacy., justice, Literary Grit, Lust Train, Lust vs Love, Male Consent, male vulnerability, masculinity, Mirroring, Misfired, Misunderstood Men, Modern Dating, modern-poetry, Narrative Poetry, philosophical poetry, Psychological realism, Psychological Warfare, raw emotion, rejection, Resonance., respect, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, self-knowledge, Self-Reflexive, Sexual Ethics, The Artist’s Voice, The Long Game, trauma.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 97 — Reflection: Misfired I was afraid-
how do I cup her face in my hands
and whisper, Stay quiet. 
Let me admire what I have.
She pressed closer. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 – Stairway to Hell

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abstinence, Agency, ambiguity, attention, awakening, boundaries, college, consent, consequence, Control, desire, Detachment, discipline, distance, dominance, ego, Ethics, fallout, friendship, Hierarchy, humiliation, identity, irony, loneliness, loss, lust, masculinity, memory, miscommunication, narrative, Observation, perception, performance, power, Pride, reflection, Reputation, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96, rumor, self-myth, silence, Stairway to Hell, stairwell, status, temptation, transformation, trauma, vulnerability, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 - Stairway to Hell As an engineering student with an analytical mind-trained in basic physics and mathematics, capable enough-my mind first studied her eyes in the college corridor.
She planted her right hand on the wall above my shoulder, stopping me mid-step as I began descending the stairs in the middle of the corridor.
Jovial, yet forceful.
Why wasn’t she afraid of Ronie?
She was just as tall as I was. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 – What a Wonderful World

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Alienation, bleak clarity, brothel narrative, Capitalism, class consciousness, commodification, confessional poetry, contemporary poetry, death and illness, dignity, emotional deprivation, emotional-austerity, emotional-truth, ethical tension, Ethics, existential literature, first-person narrative, grief, honesty, Human Cost, human worth, Indian English poetry, intimacy without love, late modern poetry, loneliness, loss, masculinity, money and value, moral accounting, moral injury, nihilism resisted, personal philosophy, philosophical poetry, power dynamics, quiet rage, realism, realism-over-romance, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93, silence, social critique, social hypocrisy, solitude, solitude ethics, survivor voice, transactional intimacy, trauma writing, unsentimental writing, value collapse, vulnerability, Wonderful World.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 - What a Wonderful World My mother died two and a half years ago.
My father just suffered a heart attack.
At thirty-seven, single, I felt utterly unable to cope.
When I headed to the brothel, I knew exactly where I was going.
I kept telling myself: They don't give love; they sell what you pay for-and that's all you'll get. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92 – Hunger and Poverty

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, absence-as-presence, accountability, blame, care-without-reward, consent, consequence, deprivation, dignity, emotional-austerity, endurance, ethical-poverty, Ethics, existential-accounting, Existentialism, Human Cost, hunger, hunger-metaphor, Integrity, internal-law, invisibility, Isolation, loneliness, loss, masculinity, moral choice, moral-cost, moral-hunger, negative-space, poverty, quiet-tragedy, Refusal, refusal-politics, refusal-to-consume, restraint, restraint-vs-desire, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92, RonieDinosaur, scarcity, self-denial, self-governance, silence, society, solitude, starvation, time, unmet-need, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92 – Hunger and Poverty The point is—
a man must eat when it is served.
Yet I carry this blame: I did not eat,
though the world knew my hunger—
those who fed me, Read more from here...

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