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Sorcery

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, ambiguity, autobiographical fiction, body language, boundaries, character, confession, consent, desire, dignity, discipline, disillusionment, emotional labor, first-order truth, Heartbreak, Intimacy., Kaliyug myth, longing, loss, masculinity, modern alienation, Modernity, moral economy, mythic voice, peacock metaphor, power dynamics, Pride, Psychological realism, Purity, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint ethics, romantic idealism, Ronie Dinosaur, self-respect, Selfhood, solitude, Sorcery, stoicism, swan metaphor, symbolism, transformation, unrequited-love, vulnerability, will.

Sorcery I came back having lost-so who has ever come back having won?
I lived by my own will; this is not called losing.
I became Ronie to the whole world-from five-year-old children to everyone at the table, at the door, or on the floor.
In return for the love I gave the boy within me, I could not gather love from a girl for myself.
The generosity of my spirit, my character in action, my golden intent-and yet my desire proved fruitless. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 131 – The Fear of Solitude

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: acceptance, Agency, awareness, character, clarity, consciousness, consequence, Courage, destiny, determinism, discipline, emotional control, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, fate, fear, forward motion, grit, grounded wisdom, human condition, inevitability, inner strength, Introspection, Maturity, minimalism, Moral Spine., non-romantic, perseverance, personal law, philosophical poetry, psychological stability, quiet power, realism, refusal-of-illusion, resilience, resolve, responsibility, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 131, RonieDinosaur, Self-mastery, solitude, stoicism, strength without hope, time, walking metaphor, will.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 131 - The Fear of Solitude He walks in fear of being left behind,
in fear of ending up alone.
Yet he walks alone-
and always remains alone,
no matter what. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 134 – The Law of Inevitability

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: acceptance, Agency, awareness, character, clarity, consciousness, consequence, Courage, destiny, determinism, discipline, emotional control, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, fate, forward motion, grit, grounded wisdom, human condition, inevitability, inner strength, Introspection, Maturity, minimalism, Moral Spine., non-romantic, perseverance, personal law, philosophical poetry, psychological stability, quiet power, realism, refusal-of-illusion, resilience, resolve, responsibility, restraint, RonieDinosaur, Self-mastery, solitude, stoicism, strength without hope, time, walking metaphor, will.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 134 - The Law of Inevitability What was meant to happen
has already passed.
What is unfolding now
unfolds as it must.
What is destined to be Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127 – What Is Love?

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, Alienation, asymmetry, boundaries, chosen deprivation, consent, desire, dignity, dominance, emotional ethics, emotional mismatch, Ethics, gun metaphor, hunger-metaphor, identity, inner conflict, inner law, Integrity, Intimacy., invisible rupture, longing, love, masculine restraint, misunderstanding, modern romance, moral injury, morality, non-consummation, philosophy, power, power dynamics, psychology, quiet violence, Refusal, rejection, restraint, restraint versus appetite, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127, self-control, silence, silence as violence, starvation, submission, surrender, trauma, unmet desire, unrecognized virtue, vulnerability, What Is Love.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 127 - What Is Love? A seat in the university lecture hall
always saved for me-
her Ronie, the only one allowed to sit.
She would wait in the room,
never calling, never texting, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 – Hibernation of the Self

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Agency, athlete, Autonomy, awakening, boundaries, character, collapse, consciousness, delayed-growth, dignity, discipline, emotional-austerity, endurance, Existentialism, Hibernation, identity, Integrity, internal-conflict, Introspection, Isolation, lived-experience, loss, memory, moral-awakening, non-romantic, personal-ethic, philosophy, realism, recovery, Refusal, rehab, rejection, resilience, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122, Self, self-examination, self-preservation, Selfhood, silence, stoicism, substance abuse, survival, time, trauma-processing, walking forward, withdrawal.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 122 - Hibernation of the Self I am not just what happened to me.
When you rejected your friend-
because you are a woman,
you had that right-
I felt insulted, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: accountability, addiction-context, adulthood, Agency, autobiographical, Autonomy, character, cold-clarity, collapse, collapse-narrative, Collapsed Twice, consequence, dignity, Ethics, existential, family-expectation, grief, human condition, identity, Introspection, Isolation, judgment, literary-poetry, lived-experience, masculinity, mental health, minimalism, money-and-loneliness, moral-neutrality, non-redemptive, perception, philosophy, pressure, psychological, realism, recovery, recovery-path, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123, Selfhood, silence, social-pressure, stoicism, survival, testimony, trauma, truth-telling, Value.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 123 – Collapsed Twice I collapsed twice in my life.
The first time was at twenty-one.
Family pressed in:
“Why aren’t you studying?
What are you even doing there? Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 121 – 103 Degrees Low

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: burning calm, controlled fury, dark romance, dignity, emotional control, emotional honesty, emotional precision, emotional survival, emotional temperature, endurance, Heartbreak, hidden turmoil, inner fire, inner flame, inner war, internal-conflict, iron will, Isolation, lyrical storytelling, masculinity, mental battle, personal myth, poetic intensity, poetic metaphor, poetic noir, Pride, private hell, psychological heat, quiet rage, rejection, rejection pain, rejection trauma, resilience, restraint, self-discipline, self-respect, silent suffering, solitude, solitude path, stoicism, strength, suppressed anger, unresolved feelings, vulnerability, walking away.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 121 - 103 Degrees Low Verse 1 Feeling doesn’t make it real-
only knowing does.
I burned inside; you never felt
the fire I carried just because. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 120 – Frooti Shot Me Down

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: aching want, afterglow, ambiguous relationship, attraction, Betrayal, bittersweet, boundaries, cinematic mood, college setting, confusion, dark romance, desire vs dignity, emotional gunshot, emotional tension, empty chair, erotic subtext, forbidden closeness, Frooti, Heartbreak, hidden rooms, Intimacy., Jealousy, late-night calls, lonely narrator, longing, longing glances, lust, melancholy, Memories, near-miss, obsession, obsessional love, poetic noir, power dynamics, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 120, rooftops, secrecy, Seduction, Shot Me Down, silence, slow burn, stairwells, trust, unresolved love, unspoken desire, vulnerability, walking away, yearning.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 120 - Frooti Shot Me Down Verse 1 You wanted fire without a name,
corner me dark, take all the same.
No title needed, no promise spoken-
just hands in shadows, rules left broken. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur – The Unsold Man

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: anger, anti-compromise, character, College Life, Defiance, detention, dignity, discipline, endurance, Existentialism, extinction metaphor, failure, fate, first-love, hunger, inner flame, Integrity, intent, labor, loneliness, man, masculine identity, Moral Spine., nonconformity, Outsider, personal mythology, poverty, Pride, rebellion, Refusal, refusal to kneel, rehabilitation, rejection, resilience, restraint, road narrative, Ronie Dinosaur, self-authorship, self-respect, silence, solitude, stoicism, strength, survival, The Unsold Man, truth, unreciprocated-love, Unsold, unsold soul, upright man, walking alone.

Ronie Dinosaur (The Unsold Man) (Verse 1) I loved at first sight, got laughed at by noon,
turned the pain into iron, forged muscle from ruin.
College crowned me king, girls kept my seat warm,
but the one who held my heart said, “No, that’s not the form.” Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116 – Nehru Place, Twenty-Something

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: absence of light, angel chaos, bitterness, Bollywood song, character study, Delhi bus, dignity, emotional trauma, execution metaphor, existential poetry, failed romance, fate vs choice, fleeting connections, grief, Heartbreak, human fragility, Indian city life, inner darkness, lost-love, love without possession, masculine-vulnerability, memory, mental health, modern Indian poetry, Moral integrity, Nehru Place, Philosophical reflection, Psychological realism, quiet despair, rejection, resilience, respect in love, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116, scars, self-awareness, self-condemnation, silent witness, social judgment, solitude, survival, truth-telling, twenties, Twenty-Something, urban loneliness, war hero peace, youth disillusionment.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 116 - Nehru Place, Twenty-Something Twenty-something,
college backpack heavy on my shoulders,
T-shirt and jeans,
standing by the front door of a crowded bus
headed to Nehru Place. Read more from here...

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