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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98 — Nothing

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: authenticity, bitterness refined, desire vs fulfillment, disenchanted love, emotional neglect, emotional-austerity, emotional-starvation, emptiness, existential hunger, existential poetry, finality, hunger of the soul, hunger-metaphor, inner exile, internal exile, intimacy hunger, lived-experience, loneliness, longing, love as sustenance, masculine-vulnerability, modern confessional, moral injury, moral solitude, nihilistic clarity, nothing, nothingness, outsider perspective, poetic despair, poetic minimalism, poetic truth, post-romantic realism, psychological scars, quiet rage, refusal of compromise, refusal of substitutes, rehab narrative, resignation, restraint, romantic disillusionment, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98, scarcity mindset, self-awareness, slow self-destruction, social alienation, stoic despair, survivor’s guilt, unmet promises, unrequited-love, wounded integrity.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 98 — Nothing My heart was clean, yet I was blamed-
and I remained hungry.
Everyone drank deep, ate full,
and now sleeps well,
satisfied in the warm hush of having enough. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 – Stairway to Hell

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abstinence, Agency, ambiguity, attention, awakening, boundaries, college, consent, consequence, Control, desire, Detachment, discipline, distance, dominance, ego, Ethics, fallout, friendship, Hierarchy, humiliation, identity, irony, loneliness, loss, lust, masculinity, memory, miscommunication, narrative, Observation, perception, performance, power, Pride, reflection, Reputation, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96, rumor, self-myth, silence, Stairway to Hell, stairwell, status, temptation, transformation, trauma, vulnerability, youth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 96 - Stairway to Hell As an engineering student with an analytical mind-trained in basic physics and mathematics, capable enough-my mind first studied her eyes in the college corridor.
She planted her right hand on the wall above my shoulder, stopping me mid-step as I began descending the stairs in the middle of the corridor.
Jovial, yet forceful.
Why wasn’t she afraid of Ronie?
She was just as tall as I was. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 – Reflection: The Lost Edge

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, Agency, character, consequence, deprivation, despair, dignity, direction, discipline, endurance, Ethics, Existentialism, failure, fate, grief, hardship, honesty, human condition, hunger, identity, Introspection, loneliness, loss, masculinity, meaning, memory, Moral integrity, mortality, navigation, perseverance, post-trauma, poverty, realism, reckoning, reflection, Refusal, regret, rehabilitation, resilience, resolve, responsibility, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95, self-analysis, Selfhood, stoicism, suffering, survival, The Lost Edge, truth.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 95 - Reflection: The Lost Edge Back when youth was still on my side,
rejections stung-but I carried a quiet certainty
that my ethics, morals, and character were clean.
I was not wrong.
I told myself: one day a woman would see it, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 – What a Wonderful World

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: Alienation, bleak clarity, brothel narrative, Capitalism, class consciousness, commodification, confessional poetry, contemporary poetry, death and illness, dignity, emotional deprivation, emotional-austerity, emotional-truth, ethical tension, Ethics, existential literature, first-person narrative, grief, honesty, Human Cost, human worth, Indian English poetry, intimacy without love, late modern poetry, loneliness, loss, masculinity, money and value, moral accounting, moral injury, nihilism resisted, personal philosophy, philosophical poetry, power dynamics, quiet rage, realism, realism-over-romance, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93, silence, social critique, social hypocrisy, solitude, solitude ethics, survivor voice, transactional intimacy, trauma writing, unsentimental writing, value collapse, vulnerability, Wonderful World.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 93 - What a Wonderful World My mother died two and a half years ago.
My father just suffered a heart attack.
At thirty-seven, single, I felt utterly unable to cope.
When I headed to the brothel, I knew exactly where I was going.
I kept telling myself: They don't give love; they sell what you pay for-and that's all you'll get. Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92 – Hunger and Poverty

Posted 5 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, absence-as-presence, accountability, blame, care-without-reward, consent, consequence, deprivation, dignity, emotional-austerity, endurance, ethical-poverty, Ethics, existential-accounting, Existentialism, Human Cost, hunger, hunger-metaphor, Integrity, internal-law, invisibility, Isolation, loneliness, loss, masculinity, moral choice, moral-cost, moral-hunger, negative-space, poverty, quiet-tragedy, Refusal, refusal-politics, refusal-to-consume, restraint, restraint-vs-desire, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92, RonieDinosaur, scarcity, self-denial, self-governance, silence, society, solitude, starvation, time, unmet-need, witness.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 92 – Hunger and Poverty The point is—
a man must eat when it is served.
Yet I carry this blame: I did not eat,
though the world knew my hunger—
those who fed me, Read more from here...

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Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 89 – My Body is an Envelope

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment, Absence, anti-sentimental, atheism, Body, controlled grief, darkness, deprivation, despair without rage, emotional emptiness, emotional-austerity, emptiness as form, entropy, Envelope, existential poetry, existential realism, free will, godlessness, human condition, identity erosion, inner exile, inner-void, Introspection, introspective literature, inward collapse, Isolation, literary realism, loneliness, loss of meaning, melancholy, metaphysical imagery, minimalism, modern existentialism, modern verse, nihilism, non-hopeful poetry, philosophical melancholy, philosophical poetry, post-romantic disillusionment, psychological depth, quiet suffering, restraint, Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 89, sealed fate, sealed silence, silence, silence as metaphor, solitude, stoic despair, symbolic poetry, time and decay.

Ronie Dinosaur Chapter 89 – My Body is an Envelope They emptied my heart-
looted every last coin of light.
What remains to give?
How does one love
from a flask shattered beyond repair? Read more from here...

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Four Falls Philosophy

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Mythopoetic, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: addiction-recovery, anti-romantic poetry, ascetic living, autobiographical philosophy, autobiographical verse, character formation, character over desire, confessional poetry, discipline over pleasure, emotional restraint, endurance literature, endurance mindset, existential poetry, existential realism, first love loss, grief poetry, hunger and restraint, inner strength, Isolation, lived-philosophy, loneliness, loss of mother, masculine-vulnerability, mental toughness, minimalist suffering, nihilism tempered by will, personal mythology, philosophical realism, physical discipline, quiet defiance, refusal of victimhood, rehabilitation journey, rejection and resolve, rejection without bitterness, resilience, self-authored life, self-discipline, self-made identity, sobriety journey, solitude as identity, stoic philosophy, suffering and growth, survival ethics, trauma narrative, truth-over-comfort, unrequited-love, walking alone, willpower.

Title - Four Falls Philosophy That girl-my love at first sight-
I watched her walk away that final day,
no fight, no plea, just silence in the light.
The first fall came when school was done:
no top college seat I’d won. Read more from here...

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Why Not Me?

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: abandonment trauma, Agency, attachment, Betrayal, boundaries, consent, desire vs respect, dignity, emotional abandonment, emotional labor, endurance, existential questioning, fairness, friendship breakup, Heartbreak, human condition, incompatibility, inner conflict, Isolation, loneliness, longing, loss, male vulnerability, melancholia, memory, misalignment, moral conflict, moral solitude, patience, philosophical poetry, reflective verse, refusal-to-beg, rejection, restraint, restraint over desire, self-respect, self-withdrawal, shame, silence, slow burn, solitude, time, unanswered questions, unrequited-love, why not me, withdrawal.

Title - Why Not Me? With the heart that called you friend,
I asked you to be my girl.
You said no-straight, no pretend.
What’s a guy supposed to do in this world?
Should I stand there, beg, and plead, Read more from here...

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I Did Not Take

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: adulthood, boundary, consequence, denial, desire, dignity, emotional discipline, Ethics, Integrity, loneliness, loss, masculinity, memory, moral-line, Refusal, regret-without-pity, restraint, self-respect, separation, silence, solitude, Take, time, unchosen, unreciprocated-love, youth.

Title - I Did Not Take She told herself it was no big deal-
to touch a friend with too much fire,
to pour her lust like cheap appeal.
I never urged her, never once.
I held my line. I stood my ground. Read more from here...

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Music

Posted 6 months ago under DINOSAUR, Philosophy, Psychology Tagged: ai-era, Alienation, authenticity, creative-burnout, creative-isolation, cultural-critique, despair, emotional-brutality, Existentialism, identity, inner voice, loneliness, minimalism, modern-art, music-poetry, nihilism, post-romanticism, psychological-poetry, raw expression, self-diagnosis, silence, solitude, suno, suno music, truth-over-comfort, underground-art, unreturned-love.

Title - Music A fortune-real money too-
band drama, studio fights:
that’s what a first album once demanded.
Now it takes five minutes flat.
I already have my pretty little baby Read more from here...

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